i do not know what to do. basically i still eat raw vegan, but i am not balanced emotionally as i want to be, so sometimes (not often, fortunately) i resort to cooked food and junk food for comfort and pleasure (and maybe for health reasons, as it will become clear as you read on). having said this, i want to ask why could it be that ANYTIME i eat some heavy junk food, then for a few days i no longer have any low blood sugar at all. i have candida overgrowth in my intestine (according to dr. gabriel cousens), and raw vegan means low blood sugar unless i rebound, lift weights, sunbathe a lot, ride my bike, etc. (too tense, too much sacrifice, i want my blood sugar to be normal just because, i do not want to "earn it"). another bizarre thing is that the foods that make me feel the worst sugar-wise are... you guessed it: FRUITS !! i have way worse hypoglicemia when i eat ANY FRUIT than when i eat chocolate or anything with white sugar, regardless of the quantities of either white sugar or "unprocessed natural health-promoting fruit sugar". this is crazy, according to the gospel!! i mean, fruits make me feel SICKER for a long time, whereas white sugar does not!! i do not think eating white sugar is a good idea, of course not, but i am just mentioning this in case somebody else has similar experiences. "fruit has fiber, so the sugar is absorbed slowly (the time it takes to digest fruit)" whereas "white sugar has no fiber, so when you eat it, oh, terrible, the sugar gets absorbed very fast, and it is almost like a drug, your sugar levels go to the sky, and then plummet, etc" my body says all this is FALSE. of course i am not very knowledgeable, so simply i do not know how having a candida overgrowth can relate to all this. or maybe, when i eat refined sugars and/or flours i generally eat fat, and this slows it down, but no, if i eat avos with dates or bananas, it does not slow squat, i get the super sugar blues. but not with chocolate with pastry!! does anybody has any idea on this?? i am really curious, besides the fact that it gives me the chuckles just thinking about how incredibly dogmatic and rigid i have became regarding food, to the point that i listen more to the (in this case) meaningless theory instead of my wise physical body. i have been hyplogycemia-free also with cheese sometimes. cooked vegetables do not help, potatoes do not help, avos do not help, what is worse, unprocessed cooked vegetable matter does not cut it either. only processed grains and cheeses. whatever it is, or whatever combination of factors, it happens when i eat heavy food, preferably processed. this sounds like GREAT GREAT GREAT Paul Reynold's diet (thanks paul, i haven't laughed that hard in a long time, i was crying and my face red, great -;) what do you post-vegan-post-raw fooders think? similar experiences anyone? there is more. for a few days after i eat some junk, i regain the pre-natural hygiene, pre all of this health stuff normal-i-am-young-and-full-of-energy-all-the-time feeling i enjoyed all of my previous life. yes, i did not have candida, but it seems that junk food is so good somehow, that it even beats candida out!! my digestion goes mad with fruit sugar, but not nearly as mad with junk deadly white sugar!! i mean, think about it!! it is too funny, no? the feeling i refered to above is like a base feeling: you are ok, have no serious health problems, and have LOTS of energy to do sports anytime, anywhere. i used to feel like that all of my life until natural hygiene and candida. sometimes i hypothetize that my body is DYING for something whatever macro nutrient/different source of energy, etc in junk that is lacking in almonds dates, avos, lettuce, etc. could it be that i need grains, flours? maybe TONS of raw cheese? i read "we want to live" recently, and i just could not believe my eyes!! and the book has been praised (can i say praised?) here in this list. he recommends _butter_ with _honey, basically as much as you _want_!! funny, funny, funny, when i read his explanations for the hospital staff (he gave honey-butter to his dying son, and also blended raw meat with i don't remember what, and sure thing his son reacted QUICK and was out of the woods) i was visualizing all my raw vegan "laws" and again LOL. i said this here before: i am not attracted to raw meat of any kind. and i trust my body. i could be too brainwashed and out of touch though, and not recognize my need for it. but i think tomorrow i will get myself some good organic cheese and give it a try. there is more. when i eat junk or dairy, i drink less water (again, against the theory has it that with junk your body is more intoxicated and needs more water to process the stuff, and also that junk food is generally low water, whereas "super-good-for-you-incredibly-healing-spiritual raw vegan digest oh so easily that you need very little water, if any). my real life experience contradicts all this. there is some kind of "life energy" that i lack with raw vegan but achieve fast with crap of any kind. any healthy alternative you guys can think of?? btw i hope this helps others with similar experiences if you are lurking (or posting) out there. regards, axel makaroff PS: i apologize to the list if i am being too personal, too boring, too whatever you might think. i just felt like sharing, and do not have the time to analize word by word if the message was appropiated enough for this list -;)