>SO.....anyone else here struggling with an eating disorder/compulsive >eating? I guess I am concerned esp. since I am nursing two kids! you are far from being alone, and i bet , all of us (concerned by the "right diet") come from there. My self have been unreasonnable in my relationship with food (overeating), when i was eating cooked, it was going out of hand ,i brought myself in the hospital following a "good meal". going into the practice of eating " by instinct" have been a tremendous help because soudainly i was not in "control" of what was going in my mouth i had to rely in an "higher power" (instinct) to regulate my food intake, i was not endlessly wishing for the food to taste better by transforming, cooking and seasonning it, i am taking it as it is in its true nature, (very much freeing and healing) Eating that way after 8 years , i got the impression that i was in control of my overeating but emotionnal difficulties in my relationship with loved one, proved me otherwise. I had a relapse and went back to eat cooked again for few days (out of rage and despair). Eating that way work only when you let go of being in control , as soon i try to hold on what brought me back to act more sanely , i lost it and could not maintain it. 2 years ago I reached again, the point where my life was becoming unmanageable (by myself ) , but that time instinctive eating could not be helping ( my ego misused it to gain back some control), i end up to a 12 steps program to ask for help . Just that willingness to be helped by "something" bigger than myself (ego) brought me back some manageability in my food intake . The 12 steps is a spiritual program where the higher power can be understood as you wish , from : the group conscience to God, but it works when you don't allow the ego to be in charge. It is important to recognise that our food choices are dependant on our attitude, ( eating vegan for deprivation?) and playing with our food choices is a way to bring forth the attitudes that are behind ,but in itself food doesn't resolve anything,until we deal with the source of thoses attitudes deciding to take care of ourselves and being nourished, realising that we deserve the best,) jean-claude