> >Carol: > >How will you eat now? I hope you don't dive headfirst into a diet > >that's high in the very things you used to avoid. Are you still > >going to be a vegetarian? > Axel: > you know, the answer is i do not have a clear idea. criteria one will be > not to control it with my mind. criteria two will be well-being. criteria > three will be not having this weird blind rationalized symptoms! like > peeing a lot and being more thirsty with "health food" than with crap!! > somebody said, recently that the reason we start this diet is sometimes a > desire to feel better, right? i am not feeling better. i forgot to mention > something i was almost totally blind to: being weak and dizzy and just > plain down really interferes with my social/sexual/sensual life. gosh, it > even affects my self-steem! Absolutely! I don't find that strange at all. > i know i am ambitious, but i do not want to > control diet and health with my head. it is not possible to me, > there are too many variables in my life. i am in the process of > becoming aware and > later "cleansing" my emotional pain from > childhood, i am doing this with a psychologist i trust deeply > and with whom i have a good rapport (do you > use this word in english? -;) All the time, and in just that way. :) > i am looking for some fish and dairy from reputable sources > ( i want to eat raw ricotta, but have not found it yet). i > guess i have to take it easy (not too easy, though -;) and > experiment and see what happens. Sounds like you've got a good attitude about it. I asked about the vegetarianism because I've seen many people go from raw vegan to cooked vegan when they start feeling that something isn't quite right. Personally, I think that this is a mistake. I think that if one is fiddling with one's diet for health reasons, the second step should be adding raw meats and/or eggs. Just seems the second most natural group of foods (after fruits, veggies, and seeds; I'm not into grains that need soaking or cooking to be palatable). If that didn't do the trick, I would consider adding dairy (though if my meat or egg sources were questionable, I might well add raw milk first; at least in my area, a raw milk supplier that I trust is easier to find than trust- worthy sources of meat or eggs). I would add grains only as a last resort. I realize that such a scheme would go against your rule #1, but I'm of the opinion that listening to one's body includes listening to one's brain. I think a plan of action can be helpful in situations such as yours, but of course, it's up to you. :) Carol