On Sat, 9 Aug 1997, Lynton Blair wrote: > I got a big surprise several days ago when I smelt an apple: I couldn't > believe its musty, strange smell. Almost all apples smell like this to me > at the moment. The first time, I was so sure that "it would do me good" > that I ate it: the taste was quite weak compared with "normal apple" taste. > Since then I've had a case of flu/cold or suchlike. Not too severe though > I'm still recovering. Well, allow me tell you a little story then too. I've been eating melons for the past few months, first thing in the morning, every morning. I usually buy a piece large enough to last me two or three morning meals. Yesterday morning was a *third* morning meal I was having with the same melon, and I spit it out right after I put it into my mouth. This has nothing to do with overeating obviously; I think three days for a melon is too much, even if I never noticed it before. > The other surprise was last night: I had eaten some food, and after a little > while I was still feeling that I needed to eat something. So I began eating > some bananas. I thought as I went on eating "I should stop now", but > anyway... (they tasted good...). Suddenly I noticed the next one had a > completely different (musty, unappealing) smell ! And they all did !! Help !!! Bananas are my weak point, and I'm not sure what might be the story with them. In fact, it's midnight now; I went to sleep around 9pm (after having two delicious egg yolks - the shell was okay, but hard on my teeth; and I didn't like the white too much. Btw, two didn't satisfy me -- I could have probably taken in 2-3 more yolks -- but I stopped out of fear of overdoing it with this new raw food; I prefer to wait around for the reactions first, on the two yolks I did eat); and so, I am up now and just finished eating a third, large banana. Feel much better now, but not satisfied. I wonder if one can easily get a "stop" from bananas. It happened to me only once so far (earlier today). It kept smelling kinda good, still, but in my mouth, the edible part tasted *exactly* like the skin (yep, tried the skin too once). It was that specific, and very difficult to describe taste (try the skin to find out exactly what I mean). I had to give on the rest of that banana then and had not craved any up until just now or so - again, for the first time ever have I had no craving for a banana. > ;>)... Am I becoming an Instincto without formal decision ? What fates > await me ?? What can I expect now ??? Will the CFP come and take me away > in the dark of the night ???? I am left with very similar questions. In addition to an unprecedented desire to get out of my house and into the "nature"; get away from my TV; breathe fresh air; be away from people who can't understand what the heck I'm going through; eat the highest possible quality of foods; and the list does go on - the usual stuff, that I'm sure I'm not the only one to be experiencing. All this after a few months of all-raw, and a few days of instincto experimenting. The questions I am seriously beginning to ask myself now are: what will I do when my desire to really get out of the city becomes difficult (read "impossible") to handle and cope with. I am starting to consider my options here, and I sure hope I'm not going nuts. I spent a good part of the day, yesterday reading the archives on whatever had the word instinctive in it (and the "rawtimes" website). I came across Zephyr's book's review, and found the excerpts quite interesting. I think I'll start with Schaeffer's material though, as it is the only one of the books that is currently available to me at a bookstore, without my having to wait for it to be order and such. > Am I being realistic? > (Oh, BTW, Tom - your post has enabled me to redefine my goal: now I would > be satisfied with 99.9%Raw, "perfection is unattainable" or "to be imperfect > is perfectly satisfactory". With the 0.1% I feel that I need to choose my > cooked _very_carefully_ so that I can get the most benefit from it (whether > enjoyment or nourishment, social acceptance, etc). Right at the moment I > can't think of anything that attracts me cooked... How about creating an "instincto camp" somewhere where there is no winter? Gosh... how I seem to fear winter now.