This might sound negative and I don't mean for it to be but it is the truth. If I were you I would retire live off of social security or SSI like they want us to do. I have worked since the age of 9 doing od jobs. Cleaning houses, working on cars, cutting grass and other yard owrk. and so on. Well, when I graduated I tried to get all kinds of jobs. Than I went back to college got not just one degree but a few plus certificate. applied for 519 jobs in one year. Than, got a few part time jobs (way under my qualifications) than I finally landed a state job that started out part time. For 6 years they kept saying they would hire me. Well in the mean time a wheelchair hesspanic got hired and out the door I went. So I have decided to retire and live off society. I don't like it and prefer to earn my money and pay taxes but like they say if you can't beat them join them. I am tired of being under the microscope, having to do 200% work when others only do 5% and most of all the rejection. And now I am the happiest I have ever been. I can work on my music (even if it goes no where) work small house cleaning jobs for extra money if need and enjoy life. I just got tired of the fight. -- Christ is the reason for the season. If there was not Chirst. There would be no Christ-mas. MERRY CHRISTMAS!!!!!!!!! Karen Carter Class of '74 -------------- Original message -------------- From: Lyn Latham <[log in to unmask]> Dear E-church members, I just wanted to pop in today and ask for prayer and also begin a discussion with any of you who might be going through something similar. As most of you know, I used to work at Verizon Wireless, 5 years in Ohio and 2 years in Florida. To no avail, i tried to stick in there, but they would change things so that JAWS wouldn't work, and then not just that, but each time I would mention anything to them they didn't hear my voice. Now I have left since July because of the emotional stress of the high pressured call center. I felt there was nothing else that I could do. Now I am trying to look for jobs, and Division of Blind Services will not help me. They made my therapist write a letter to say what kind of work I could do, and because she said no call centers they said they can't help me. So now, I tried to find jobs and whenever they find out that we are blind they do not want you. I just don't understand that. I have been in therapy since around March or May just trying to g et through all of this stuff. I pray and ask the Lord to help me through, I need deliverance from past junk, and I just can't seem to let go because eah time when I think that i have let go, something comes up to tell me that I'm stil a failure. I know the devil is a lier and there is no truth in Him, so why do I still insist on carrying this, and why cant' I get anything worthwhile? I just have a high school education and I know that's a lot of the trouble, but I tried school and I have too much of a learning curve to keep up. How many have ROP, and have you had these problems like with the learning curve? Just pray. I don't want to get on a tangent, but this group should be to lift each other up in the Lord, and that'swhat I need now. I'm pretty down in the dumps now. If anyone wants to call me and talk, you can reach me at: 813-998-2070. Thanks for listening. ound last May or April and I am better. However, I have ____________________________________________________ Lyn Latham Psalm 30:5 NIRV Published author of: "Joy Comes In The Morning" available at: www.authorhouse.com/bookstore/bookhome.aspx