I think when we come from harsh back grounds it is harder.  I also have my hadest time when I am down or depressed. 
Father in Heaven we thank you for your love for Mari and especially thank you for keeping her from harming herself.  We know that swearing is bad but like she says it is the better of two evils.  Help us Lord to beable to screem to you instead of hurting ourselves physically or spiritually.  We thank you for being our strength during our weakness. In your mighty precious name we pray Amen

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Can you imagine what a scarcity of news there would be If everybody obeyed 
> the Ten Commandments? 

I would rather live my life as if there is a God, and die to find out there isn't, than live my life as if there isn't, and die to find out there is 

IN GOD WE TRUST 
Karen Carter '74 
-KC- Ministries 


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From: MariJean Mizrahi <[log in to unmask]> 

> Hi Karen, 
> 
> I know that kind of thing can take time, but, me being the impatient 
> sort, I want it on my terms and have trouble just waiting on HIM. 
> 
> There was a lot of violence and other types of abuse that were 
> horrific and incidious as well. Sometimes, swearing is the best of 
> the worst things I do. Often, if I fall into depressions, I take a 
> sharp knife to my fingers, just as if I were slashing at my eyes. I 
> started that after my first nervous crisis in 1986. I really hate 
> that as well, but haven't done it in a long time, so, maybe that part 
> is over for good. I pray so. 
> 
> I also have problems trusting, establishing boundaries, etc. 
> 
> Luv in Daddy Jesus, 
> 
> Mari 
> 
> 
> 
> At 01:34 AM 7/1/2006, you wrote: 
> >Mari, Yah I think that is part of the problem. I did not grow up 
> >in a non swearing home. Infact that was probably what was mostly 
> >spoken in the Carter house. It is like it is ingrained in me. But 
> >I know God can take it out and I wish he would. 
> > 
> >-- 
> >Can you imagine what a scarcity of news there would be If everybody obeyed 
> > > the Ten Commandments? 
> > 
> >I would rather live my life as if there is a God, and die to find 
> >out there isn't, than live my life as if there isn't, and die to 
> >find out there is 
> > 
> >IN GOD WE TRUST 
> >Karen Carter '74 
> >-KC- Ministries 
> > 
> >-------------- Original message -------------- 
> >From: MariJean Mizrahi 
> > 
> > > Hi Karen: 
> > > 
> > > A few of my "helpers" curse too. If I get seriously depressed, the 
> > > air turns blue. Afterwards, I feel so ashamed, like I'm not a "good 
> > > Christian". I know how it feels to hear language come out of you 
> > > that mortifies you. 
> > > 
> > > My problem is that, this language is all I heard growing up, and, 
> > > such language it was too. 
> > > 
> > > LOVE IS DADDY JESUS, 
> > > 
> > > Mari 
> > > 
> > > 
> > > 
> > > At 09:52 PM 6/28/2006, you wrote: 
> > > >Karen, 
> > > >I will be praying for you and believe me we all have our pit falls. 
> > > >Virgie and Hoshi 
> > > >----- Original Message ----- From: "Karen Carter" 
> > > >To: 
> > > >Sent: Wednesday, June 28, 2006 11:44 AM 
> > > >Subject: Re: update on job. 
> > > > 
> > > > 
> > > >>Yah I am glad he forgives because it seems like just when you think 
> > > >>your doing ok, something comes along to make you fall. I still 
> > > >>have trouble with swearing. Although it is nothing like it use to 
> > > >>be I stll have problems with it. I would like prayer in that area 
> > > >>because I know I shouldn't do it and it still comes out. And that 
> > > >>is not a good witness for God. 
> > > >> 
> > > >>-- 
> > > >>Can you imagine what a scarcity of news there would be If 
> > everybody obeyed 
> > > >>>the Ten Commandments? 
> > > >> 
> > > >>I would rather live my life as if there is a God, and die to find 
> > > >>out there isn't, than live my life as if there isn't, and die to 
> > > >>find out there is 
> > > >> > >>IN GOD WE TRUST 
> > > >>Karen Carter '74 
> > > >>-KC- Ministries 
> > > >> 
> > > >> 
> > > >>-------------- Original message -------------- From: Vicki and The 
> > > >>Rors 
> > > >> 
> > > >>>And isn't it a wonder thing to be forgiven by the Lord, Jen. 
> > Reminds me of 
> > > >>>a passage I read this morning. 
> > > >>> 
> > > >>>Lamentations 3:21-25 (NIV) 
> > > >>> 
> > > >>>Yet this I call to mind 
> > > >>>and therefore I have hope: 
> > > >>> 
> > > >>> 
> > > >>>Because of the LORD's great love we are not consumed, 
> > > >>>for his compassions never fail. 
> > > >>> 
> > > >>> 
> > > >>>They are new every morning; 
> > > >>>great is your faithfulness. 
> > > >>> 
> > > >>> 
> > > >>>I s ay to myself, "The LORD is my portion; 
> > > >>>therefore I will wait for him." 
> > > >>> 
> > > >>> 
> > > >>>The LORD is good to those whose hope is in him, 
> > > >>>to the one who seeks him; 
> > > >>> 
> > > >>>Vicki 
> > > > 
> > > 
>