Lelia, I really appreciate it very much. Sandy ----- Original Message ----- From: "lelia" <[log in to unmask]> To: <[log in to unmask]> Sent: Wednesday, February 18, 2004 7:21 AM Subject: Re: Gretchen and drug rehab > Hi Phil, and Sandy, I can not say I'm a parent but I am a sister to my Linda > and I have always thought of her as my Linda, I have truly cried and prayed > and still do. I love her as you love your daughter. I know we all wish > things could be different, I don't know about you two but even I just the > big sister think what could I have done differently. How could I have made > her see the love we all feel for her. But I know I did the best I could. > and I also know you and Sandy have done the best you could and are still. > Phil, and Sandy, I love you both and I truly do know what you are going > through not as a parent, but as a sister who hurts for her sister her little > sister. I know you know you have the Lord through all of this but please > please don't think your alone wwhen it comes to friends who have and or know > or been through what your going through in your souls. > > Lelia > > > ----- Original Message ----- > From: "Phil Scovell" <[log in to unmask]> > To: <[log in to unmask]> > Sent: Tuesday, February 17, 2004 10:22 PM > Subject: Re: Gretchen and drug rehab > > > > Thanks Lelia. Well, if Gretchen doesn't do well in the rehab, prison is > > next. Sandy and I were in the living room Saturday night and talking > about > > Gretchen. I had felt a spiritual attack coming for two or three days. > > Gretchen, and her situation, was triggering some of it and I knew that but > > when it is your own daughter, you can't stop your feelings. Sandy and I > > both got to crying about and I felt what I am about to say before I said > it. > > I said, I would go to jail for her if she could go free. I know now, that > > it was the Spirit of Christ speaking out of my own spirit and what I was > > feeling was what the Lord feels for Gretchen, too. An intercessor doesn't > > usually get to pick what they want to feel. I have been praying for > people > > many different times in the last 19 years that I have been an intercessor, > > and sometimes I suddenly begin feeling what they are feeling. I have felt > > deep heart ache and brokenness, I have felt fear and anxiety, I have felt > > loneliness and abandonment once, and thank God it was only once, the anger > > of God. I was praying for a church and a Christian school here in Denver. > > I felt the anger of the Lord suddenly slam into me from behind me with > such > > force, it nearly knocked me out of my chair. I felt like someone picked > me > > up from behind like I was a rag doll and shook me. I yelled in my prayer > so > > loudly, my voice was hoarse for four days. I could not have turned off > what > > the Lord was saying to this pastor and church and Christian school and > > school principal if you would have offered me a million dollars. Never > have > > I felt the power of God so severely. this church, by the way, had shifted > > the focus of their ministry from being a ministry to being like a business > > and a secular school and God was mad. Two weeks later, the church and > > school were shut down by Jefferson county health department because they > had > > an infestation of head lice. I'm not making this up. Everybody in my > > living room to this day, that heard me praying said they had no doubt the > > Lord was trying to get this church's attention. I have posted on here a > > letter once I wrote to a friend to tell him something that happened when I > > was praying for him during a Wednesday night prayer meeting at the little > > church we were attending. The weight of this man's brokenness and sorrow > > was so heavy when it came upon me, I almost fell out of the pew. I half > > fell forward and fell face down in the middle of the pews and I felt this > > man's pain so strongerly and I felt the war going on inside of him so > > severely, I literally beat the floor. I began coughing and gagging and > > choking and I honestly thought I was going to throw up. I felt I was > > coughing up all the pain he had carried for his entire life. Near the > end, > > I was praying so loud, I suddenly realized I was saying, screaming was > more > > like it, Somebody call him son, call him son, somebody call him son. I > was > > physical exhausted when it was over and I could hardly talk for two days. > > After the service, maybe 6 or 8 people were there, an elderly woman who > knew > > this man and his wife personally for many years came over and talked very > > quietly to me and said. You didn't know what you were doing but you hit > the > > nail right on the head. Jim had a horrible childhood and his father never > > cared for him. She said, his wife has told me about how his father never > > cared for him. So, I said all that to once again say, an intercessor does > > not get to pick and choose what they pray about or what they feel. > > > > Phil. > >