Hello Everyone, My thanks for all of your thoughts and prayers. I am in so much pain, and need to take morphine every one and a half hours. I slept until 4:30 this afternoon, and am just now getting to my e-mail. If my neurologist does not call me by 10 in the morning to tell me he has prescribed new medication, I will call the hospital to ask to speak to a patient advocate... I will probably be sleeping until ten in the morning anyway. I know the name of the reporter for the newspaper here in town who writes articles regarding disability issues, and would have no worries regarding contacting her either. I am afraid though, that, I WILL BE SEEN AS A DIFFICULT PATIENT, MIGHT GET MY PUMP TAKEN AWAY, BUT I am in so much pain, and just want to cry. I have asked about surgery in the United States, but have been told it would cost over 30 thousand dollars. No surgery date yet, no pain medication, no nothing, hough I go to bed praying that something will change quickly. The only bright spot is that tomorrow is my birthday (turning 24), and my identicalk twin sister, brother-in-law Andrew, and baby Nephew Spencer James are coming home to Ontario for two weeks beginning tomorrow night. Spencer will be baptised next weekend, and I am to be his Godmother... I have not even told my Mom the desperate pain I am in. She says she does not want to hear it, which in some respects I can understand. I have been through so much surgery, so much pain, so much disappointment. he says I should just keep my mouth shut and wait to be given a date for surgery... I don't know what to do or what to think, but know I DO NOT deserve to be treated like this... Thank you for your continued prayers. Any thoughts? Jenn