I'll admit that after the toxic system with sisters and other dominant females (amazon types), female relationships are problematic. The dominance-template is continually projected and I am constantly re-experiencing the tyrannical constraints of these relatioships (suffocation) and immediately sever. then being alone again I feel like I've re-entered Heaven. solitude is heavenly, interaction seems toxic. but when it doesn't---when no dominance scheme is set-up --I feel very relieved and happy but still prefer going solo. Same thing with rel. of the opposite sex--if there's dominance, forget it --the template is activated and all I want to do is get back to the cabin. I have wonderful friendships in two separate elderly people in their 80's who instill good old fashioned and religious values and with them I feel safe--with the elders of the tribe. Otherwise, see the book ECCENTRICS,about the increased happiness and longevity of those who live alone--also known as cerebetonics (who relate vertically to God, not horizontally to their fellow man; and who have a fear of disorder and chaos--which the human world often evokes) or also SAVANT-AUTISTICS who are in their own little world and do quite well there. I have many acquaintenances I can call on for help in any situation, and have a respectful relationship with the townspeople (I live ten miles from a two-horse town) and very cordial relationships when running errands there. But I'm criticized by the FEMALES for being reclusive--since most women get their identities by HOW WELL THEY DO IN THE EYES OF THE "HERD"--but thanks to my history I've graduated beyond this tendency and get mine from God and my own ongoing creative work. I have my sisters to thank for forming this solitary identity, so good comes from bad eventually.