I will be praying for you.  Hope the pain gets better soon.

Amy
----- Original Message -----
From: "April Reisinger" <[log in to unmask]>
To: <[log in to unmask]>
Sent: Tuesday, January 17, 2006 7:30 AM
Subject: Pain


> Today is interresting.  I am struggling both inside and out.  Wayne Watson
> has a song that says, "Lord, I'm growin', And I don't like it." ...  The
> feelings of change both physically and emotionally are sometimes tough at
> best to cope with.  Physically, I am in a great deal of pain because the
> doctors denied me the prescribed Darviset that seemed to help so much.  I
am
> taking a milder pain pill, but it doesn't seem to relieve the pain.  In my
> chest and shoulders where I've had the catheters and PIC lines inserted
for
> the I.V. therapy, there is a constant low-grage pain that worsens with
humid
> weather and higher barametric pressures.  Sometimes it is so tough that I
> might find myself crying in the night.  Sometimes I can deal with it.
>
> As some of you know, I made a really foolish mistake and left my hometown
> thinking I was going to live alone in an apartment but my boyfriend moved
in
> while I was hospitalized making it really hard for me to feel like I was
> living the Christ-centered life I so want to live.  While I am alone now
> here in Columbus and surrounded by a multitude of new friends, both
> believers and nonbelievers, this relationship still has a hold on me.  I
> know that God knows my heart and it is so turbulent at times that only He
> can calm it.  There are good friends in my life who serve as helpful
> sounding boards, but, I'm asking you all to covenant with me to pray for
> God's victory in this matter.
>
> Prior to my moving away from Warren, I had a counselor with whom I could
> talk on a regular basis to problem solve and balance my extremes.  I don't
> have a counselor here and I have been trying to keep myself busy by
working
> or anything to avoid dealing with the myriad of issues that nag at me.  I
> have one great fortress in the Lord and He is my only fortress.  He is why
I
> can write this to my fellow believers.  I am homesick for my brothers and
> sisters in Christ who now live far from me, and I haven't gotten close
> enough to the people here in Columbus to feel that I have somebody in whom
> to confide or to pray with me.  I miss the choir and I miss the Bible
study.
> Yes, I read on my own, but there is a strong desire to study with others
as
> I used to.
>
> Well, anyway, change is not necessarily bad, and I'm sure God will see me
> through this.  Thanks for listening, and thanks for praying.  Phil, please
> e-mail me your phone number off list and I will try to call you at a good
> time for you either Sunday, Monday, or Tuesday.  Or ... perhaps today.
OH,
> yeah, today is Tuesday.  LOL, and I have a quack attack.  The podiatrist
> will look at my foot and tell me I'm doing fine but remember to put that
> lotion on.  LOL.
>
> I love you, my brothers and sisters.
>
> April