Kim, this is Mari.

Hi Kim,

I experienced panic attacks for years in one form or another, but 
mine are very different. I long for the day that I can get off the 
pharmaceuticals which I still take on a daily basis. Sometimes, I 
feel weak in my faith, and that I should be able to just get off 
these things, but, The Holy Spirit has not got me going in that 
direction yet. So, until He does, I am a walking pharmacy, and I 
resent it. I take meds for insomnia, panic attacks, diabetes, 
so-called bipolar disorder, high cholesterol, mood stabilizers, 
depression, etc, etc, etc. I wish I could just be healed right now so 
I wouldn't have to take all these things. Do you get the feeling I 
resent them? You bet your boots, I do!


IN HIS MATCHLESS NAME,

Purple Mari and her faithful scribe, Purple Reeva Parry.


On Tuesday 6/19/2007 08:04 AM, Kim Etheridge said:

>Thanks Jennifer and Phil, along with everyone else. I tell you, at 
>one moment, I thought I'd hyperventilate or have a heart attack from 
>sheer terror. I was almost paralyzed. When I was in my room, I could 
>have sworn a quiet, but evil giant was standing by my bed. Ugh! I 
>could also have sworn that the same giant, or one bigger, probably 
>was standing over me in the bathtub. Bugh! If you think you've had a 
>panic attack, don't put the label on it. I pray none of you will 
>ever experience this kind of attack. I'm not sure panic attack is 
>the right phrase. Demon attack may be more appropriate. Anyway, when 
>I was in my room, I got so scared that God lifted me up and guided 
>me toward the TV, and I turned it to the Trinity broadcasting 
>network, otherwise known as TBN. I'm sure you've heard of it. I 
>don't think I did it by myself. I couldn't have, I was so entrenched 
>in fear. It could have only been Jesus. Thank God that He allowed my 
>aunt to come home shortly after I turned on TBN. Anyway, shortly 
>after she got here, I crashed. I'd been unable to sleep the previous 
>night, and I'd stayed awake until an hour after she got here. The 
>feeling was as strong as evil electricity. I don't want to scare 
>anyone, but talking about it makes me feel better, although it also 
>gives me chills.