Hi Lelia,
Vinny
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From: "lelia" <[log in to unmask]>
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Sent: Saturday, January 24, 2004 8:10 PM
Subject: the waterfalls of Love


> Hi all, well, something happened to me today that I if I don't tell you
all
> will burst out of my heart anyway.  Have you ever felt like your brain was
> going faster than your fingers?  Well, that's what's happening now.  When
I
> was a child I was sexually molested by my father.  I knew that it had
> happened but I had blocked my memory of the events.  I was lied to I was
> lulled in to a false security blanket of guilt shame and hurt and fear.
My
> Jesus through the waterfall of my Holy Spirit showed me today that a lot
of
> that wasn't my hurt or pain but my fathers.  Yes he did sexually molest me
> and yes I felt dirty unclean like a whore.  Ok moderators sorry but I
could
> not describe it any other way.  My poor father was hurt in his life.  His
> family background was hard for him.  I guess what all of this boils down
to
> is that today I am healed and can go back to my past a past that I knew
had
> happened but was afraid of and couldn't even remember.  You know we can
all
> say we forgive but I think that for me I really did not know what
> forgiveness really was because of the lies in my head and heart.  I know
> this isn't doing my feelings any justice but all I can say is that during
> this prayer session I felt live like a waterfall but that waterfall wasn't
> running outside it was running through out my whole heart my soul.  I
guess
> if I had a request it would be that if my fathers still alive and I don't
> know if he is or not but if he is please pray all that he comes to know
our
> Christ.  When Phil said he had seen some one healed it was me.  I will
wish
> you all a goodnight and hey its real it can happen.  I think that we don't
> take what the Holy Spirit has to offer us.  and that for me right now is
> healing.  The love of a waterfall.
>
> Lelia
>