Rhonda,
    No I don't think your an awful person.  It is totally Ben's choice to
get help.  All you can do is encourage him to get the medical attention he
needs.  I will be praying.

Amy
----- Original Message -----
From: "Rhonda Partain" <[log in to unmask]>
To: <[log in to unmask]>
Sent: Monday, April 10, 2006 9:52 PM
Subject: apology


> I am sorry, I really never talked to anyone, I did leave a message, but
> never heard back! I just feel sooo awful, I can't do anything,  if I were
to
> call 911 Ben could refuse treatment,  he has the right to do that! I do
> think he needs to see someone, but what can I do?  People were saying "If
I
> were You" and I just felt so awful, caught between  well, wanting Ben to
go
> get some medical attention and  not knowing how to get him to do that!
> I just feel so  worried, what can I do?  I realize he needs attention,
> swelling in itself means his kidneys aren't working,  but what do I do?  I
> guess I just felt  as though you guys would think I was an awful person if
I
> didn't call, or somehow get Ben to go!
> Rhonda