Chriss! I realize you have been hurt, I am sorry that
you have.  But you know I think that goes with loving,
God gives us love, and because He does, we choose to
love others, and in so doing, we open ourselves up to
experience joy, as well as great depths of sorrow.  Is
it better then not to love at all?  Should we protect
our hearts at all costs, and once we have been hurt
decide that will never happen again?  I fear that if
we turn away from loving others, we cease to know how
to experience the love of God, it's a good thing for
me that God didn't decide that loving me was too hard
for Him, I am sure that my actions and words have
brought Him pain at times.  I know it is hard, I have
been in a marriage for almost twenty years, and
believe me! sometimes love is simply a choice and a
prayer, it's hard, we people can be so cruel.  God
help us all to show others love and not act in anger,
we really have never seen love as it ought to be,
examples here on earth have taught us to keep to
ourselves for fear of being hurt, give us the courage
to love anyway! even though we risk hurt, the love You
gave certainly cost You something, it was not easy,
but because you choose to love, we have the ability to
face life with theknowledge that One loves us
unconditionally.

Rhonda
--- Chris <[log in to unmask]> wrote:
> Guys, listen, I don't know how to say this to you
> all.  Every time I get
> involved in friendships, they always come, and go...
>  usually they go
> quicker than come.  i can't stand this game, of
> being hurt over and over and
> over again.  It's absolutely nothing that any of you
> all have done, and pat,
> it's especially nothing that you did, and this
> doesn't have anything
> whatsoever to do with last Saturday, however, i just
> can't go on living,
> with people constantly being my friend for maybe 3
> at the most years, then
> turning around just cause of one thing I do wrong,
> denying that there is a
> problem, and then not even working with me to
> resolve it.  I just feel that
> friendships are not worth it anymore.  I'm not
> directly directing this at
> anyone specificly.  Again, I did say, this is no one
> on here who caused this
> final decision of mine, it's just that time and time
> again, I've been hurt.
> Time after time again, I've been let down.  Time
> after time, I've been lied
> to.  Time after time, I've been spoken to both
> rudely, and unfairly.  I know
> that God still loves me, but that doesn't really
> matter.  That is totally
> beside my point.  This is not meant as a religiously
> written mail.  I'm
> speaking totally humanly here.  i can not, and will
> not continue life,
> risking my life on broken wings of friendships.
> Thus, I am leaving this
> list.  I might decide to correspond with some of you
> all still.  Right now
> I'm very undecided.  Again, I need to stress and
> make sure that every single
> one of you with no one left out, understands the
> complete reason why I'm
> making this choice.  i'm not doing it to seek
> revenge.  Revenge hurts, and I
> wouldn't put you all through it.  Plus, you all've
> done absolutely nothing
> wrong.  it's me.  I just can't continue life like
> this, period.  I'm totally
> scared to even trust anyone at this point.  You
> could give me a grape
> jolly-rancher and tell me it was grape, and I
> wouldn't trust you.  That's
> just how shudderedly torn I am.  i just can't do it
> any longer.  if any of
> you want to write me off list, suredly I'll welcome
> your e-mail with no
> harde feelings, and more than likely, i'll reply,
> but if i seem incredibly
> tense, it's nothing at all you did, so please not to
> say it rudely, but get
> over it and bear it.  I can't honestly help it.
>
>
> Chris.





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