Dear Helen and Everyone,

Yes, you are right. I guess my plans for going to Oregon next year will
change slightly. I will not be staying with my Mom for the majority of my
time in Portland, unless things take a drastic turn for the better. I have
lots of loving friends in Portland and Salem that I can stay with.

I've had to do this before, and I made it just fine, so I will with-drawl
myself from my family for now. I will continue to pray for all of them.
They are not Christians and they are not saved. Maybe God is telling me to
concentrate on Vernon's salvation.

I told Vernon this morning how loving and supportative you all have been to
me, and he thought that was great. I'm not down or depressed about it, but
I feel sad for my family, because they do not know what love they are
missing from Jesus.

I want to thank you all so very much for the love and prayers and loving
support you all have shown me. I love you all a whole bunch, and want to
squeeze you all. lol.

Many lovings and squeezings for you all.

Thanks much for always being there for me.

Love and Blessings,
Pat Ferguson
At 06:16 AM 8/25/04, you wrote:
>Dear Pat,
>
>Perhaps the Lord would have you just let go of your Mom and the family
>members who reject you and your loving ways.  I learned just recently that
>one cannot bring about a change in the heart attitude of a loved one, even
>by loving them.  Only God can make the change in them that you think you
>want to see.  I know this may seem like hard counsel, but because you
>belong to Jesus, He will supply you with what you may need in order to back
>off from the situations which hurt you so much.  I pray you will allow Him
>to enable you, and to remove the pain you are suffering.
>
>In His Love,
>Helen
>
>Earlier, Pat Ferguson wrote:
> >Dear Helen, and Everyone,
> >
> >Oh Loving Helen, you are so sweet! Your words are from your heart, and from
> >Jesus. They comfort me.
> >
> >You guys, do you know my Mother put me in a Baby home for 5 years because
> >she couldn't deal with me with my blindness. I stayed with all kinds of
> >people when I was little before I was five when they brought me home that
> >summer before I was taken to the Oregon State School for the Blind. I never
> >felt a part of my family and I really still don't. It hurts me.
> >
> >When she said those horrible things to me on Saturday night, I wanted to
> >tell her that I would quit calling people Loving, if she would quit smoking
> >and drinking, but I did not say that to her.
> >
> >My love is from The Lord, and I'll never stop telling people they are
> >loving. I'll never stop calling people loving, either. If I do that, I will
> >be disobeying Jesus. It's because Jesus that this love exists, not because
> >of me. I'm not capable of loving that much, but through Our Lord, Jesus
> >Christ, we can do all things. I love to love people as God wants me to. I
> >won't let anyone take that love away from me.
> >
> >I learned how to love when I was at the School for the Blind. We were loved
> >a whole lot. Yes, we were punished when we did wrong, but just ask Cecily
> >and Paulette, we were also loved, and we were squeezed.
> >
> >So, guys, I'm sending this with all the love in my heart and you are all
> >Loving! Because God made you that way.
> >
> >Am I crazy? Probably yes. I'm crazy for Jesus, and I don't care what anyone
> >thinks.
> >
> >Love and Blessings,
> >Pat Ferguson