You're telling me. I followed through and spoke with Phil. Now, I'm peaceful 
and think I'll pull through. Rather, I believe I'll pull through.
----- Original Message ----- 
From: "Brad D" <[log in to unmask]>
To: <[log in to unmask]>
Sent: Tuesday, June 19, 2007 10:36 AM
Subject: Re: panic attack


> Just try to remember  it is just that, a feeling, not reality. Sometimes 
> hard to differentiate I know.
>
> Brad
>
> At 08:14 AM 6/19/2007, you wrote:
>>Great words, Brad. Yep, I'm going to look for Phil's home number in my 
>>notes folder and give him a call.
>>When I went in my room after my bath, the feeling hit me again. It was the 
>>same thing, like a quiet but evil giant was standing next to me, just 
>>waiting to pounce on me. It got so scary that I had to turn off my ceiling 
>>fan. It made me think the whole ceiling fan, or the ceiling was going to 
>>fall on my head and kill me.  Yep, I'm definitely going to call Phil.
>>
>>----- Original Message ----- From: "Brad D" <[log in to unmask]>
>>To: <[log in to unmask]>
>>Sent: Tuesday, June 19, 2007 9:39 AM
>>Subject: Re: panic attack
>>
>>
>>>Kim. I am glad it is over. One thing that is very important to remember 
>>>that the enemy goes around roaring like a lion. The operative word here 
>>>is the word "like". Meaning he isn't but acts like it. He has no power 
>>>over you other than persuading you to fear. However, if you remember he 
>>>is not a lion, is just a toothless loud mouth trying to put fear into 
>>>you, or entice you to bring fear upon yourself, you have power over it 
>>>because Christ is already in you. We don't have to wait for Christ to 
>>>come out of where he is to save the day, he is already in you, you have 
>>>the mind of Christ. I have the mind of a musician,  sometimes I can work 
>>>out music with ease and excitement that I've never known before, and 
>>>sometimes there are times I lay my hands on the fret board, scrub the 
>>>strings and seriously think... "What am I doing pretending I can write 
>>>anything, I've been fooling myself  based on a couple happenstances." In 
>>>those times is when I, me, in my mind, need to consciously be aware of 
>>>what is happening and take action and realize the gift I've been given by 
>>>God has not gone away, it is there, the ability is there and I only need 
>>>to press in and not buy into the thoughts the went from momentary to 
>>>monumental thoughts. They are not monumental truths , they are over 
>>>inflated lies and fears based on things of which could be many that have 
>>>my mind preoccupied with other things than being creative or artistic. 
>>>Such is similar with the enemy and his inflated hot air, giving foot hold 
>>>to the enemy is not necessarily a knowing or purposed thing. I picture 
>>>the enemy as a door to door salesman, sorry if any of you are in cold 
>>>call sales, no harm intended, but I picture him as a boisterous, over 
>>>bearing and pushy bit of a salesman who knocks at the door and announcing 
>>>himself through a closed door. If I crack the door to look at him to tell 
>>>him to go away, I've just opened up the door enough for him to get his 
>>>foot wedged between the door and the jam which I'll have a harder time 
>>>now to close it. Sometimes in our lives we forget to latch the door, we 
>>>think it is shut and locked, but it isn't, we didn't purposefully intend 
>>>to leave it unlatched. We walked in, swung the door behind us, thought we 
>>>heard it shut, but if we go up to the door and pull it without having 
>>>need to turn the knob, to our surprise it will swing open. This too is 
>>>sometimes the case when the enemy approaches the door, knocks on it and 
>>>the door will open some and we are caught a bit off guard.   Nonetheless 
>>>the surprise or startling  doesn't have to be continual. He might start 
>>>yapping right away with lies and persuasion to make you believe things 
>>>about yourself, but you can shut him up just in knowing truth. If I for 
>>>instance, told you that I have signed you up to a public speaking 
>>>contest, I use that instance because that is one of the most fearful 
>>>things for many people, but if I told you I signed you up to a public 
>>>speaking contest, one of a few things would happen. Either you'd become 
>>>fearful and panic wondering what you are going to do. Which is based off 
>>>of feeling you have no control over the situation, or that you believe 
>>>yourself to be a poor public speaker and now you will make a fool of 
>>>yourself all because of what I put upon you. That is one response. 
>>>Another might be you would  set there with arms crossed and say "Oh. 
>>>Really? Is that so? Well sorry pal but I ain't going." And you'd stand 
>>>secure knowing that I have no power over you to make you go even if I 
>>>tried to get a whole audience to expect you and if you don't show, it 
>>>would make you look bad. You'd stand confident with no fear at all 
>>>because you know there is no truth in the fact you have to show up for 
>>>anything I signed you up for. Or perhaps another response could be that 
>>>you are an excellent public speaker and you've taken what I've done to 
>>>try to put fear into you, and you've used it against me and showed me up 
>>>giving a speech on how folks can try to manipulate others and reduce my 
>>>efforts to nothing. You'd be excited about that opportunity because you 
>>>stood in the truth  that you are an excellent public speaker and you have 
>>>no fear of it being otherwise. Just as we are to pray without ceasing, we 
>>>do not always mumble to ourselves or do not stop thinking about our daily 
>>>tasks to survive this world, but we have a heart attitude of prayer, that 
>>>when an issue comes up prayer is immediate on that particular situation 
>>>and even prior to that we have a almost involuntary prayer happening 
>>>similar to our breathing. We don't consciously think, "breathe in, 
>>>breathe out, breathe in, breathe out" nor do we think to make our heart 
>>>beat the 60 to 70 times a minute it does, it is without effort or thought 
>>>we do these things. And so ought our prayer be, and so ought our ability 
>>>to stomp on the enemy at times when we find him approaching. Now we are 
>>>humans,  have choices, are not perfect in our decisions or thoughts and 
>>>so we find ourselves vulnerable, but working the muscle of recognition so 
>>>the response time of truth comes in and wipes the lie and fear away like 
>>>a marker on a white board or an eraser to chalk, we'll be better off. 
>>>This is nothing in of our selves but  the Holy Spirit sent by Christ to 
>>>live within us that gives us the ability to do these things but we do 
>>>have to choose to which to give control, Christ or the enemy. You made 
>>>mention of your fears of someone watching, lurking, spying, your 
>>>relatives doing this as kids and that brought fear to you. I think you 
>>>have already identified in part, the opening to the lie  which caused you 
>>>the fear you experienced. I might recommend, if you aren't already doing 
>>>so, looking into prayer counseling to help expose the lies and bring 
>>>freedom to you and we happened to have just such a fellow on the list :) 
>>>by the name of Phil.
>>>
>>>I'm glad it  has passed and with the same immediate self assuredness of 
>>>your aunt walking in and scaring off the darkness, all the more with 
>>>Christ who is the one with the true power to  bring permanent 
>>>disbursement through healing in those areas.
>>>
>>>Brad
>>>
>>>
>>>At 06:17 AM 6/19/2007, you wrote:
>>>>Thanks. Anyway, I told him to flee from me in the name of Jesus. I 
>>>>swear, though, it felt as if someone was hiding in the shadows watching 
>>>>me. Ugh, scary!
>>>>
>>>>In a small way, it reminded me of spy movies, or about a trick my niece 
>>>>and my cousin's daughter pulled on me awhile back, when they were spying 
>>>>on me
>>>>
>>>>and scaring me. Oh, it was awful! I don't ever want to experience 
>>>>anything remotely like that again. Thanks to Jesus for allowing my aunt 
>>>>to come home
>>>>
>>>>when she did. Otherwise, woo! I don't want to think about it. Trust me, 
>>>>you don't want to experience anything like it. When I was walking toward 
>>>>the den
>>>>
>>>>and had the feeling that I was going to fall right into hell, I was 
>>>>almost paralyzed with fear, almost scared to take another step. Ugh! It 
>>>>just sent chills
>>>>
>>>>up and down my spine, like a chilly and cold finger. Bugh! Oh Lord 
>>>>Jesus, don't ever let me experience a feeling like that again. I'm one 
>>>>of Your children.
>>>>
>>>>I plead Your blood over me. Thank You.
>>>>
>>>>I even quoted Scripture from Psalm 91, and even sang a few hymns. The 
>>>>feeling didn't leave me until my aunt got home and I finally crashed.
>>>>
>>>>----- Original Message ----- From: "Cecily Ballenger" 
>>>><[log in to unmask]>
>>>>To: <[log in to unmask]>
>>>>Sent: Monday, June 18, 2007 2:36 PM
>>>>Subject: Re: panic attack
>>>>
>>>>
>>>>>Quote Scripture and rebuke the devil in the name of Jesus Christ.
>>>>>
>>>>>Cecily
>>>>>
>>>>>-----Original Message-----
>>>>>From: The Electronic Church [mailto:[log in to unmask]] On
>>>>>Behalf Of Kim Etheridge
>>>>>Sent: Monday, June 18, 2007 12:03 PM
>>>>>To: [log in to unmask]
>>>>>Subject: panic attack
>>>>>
>>>>>Hi. I was in the bathtub awhile ago, and all of a sudden, it felt like 
>>>>>an
>>>>>evil person or spirit was in the bathroom with me. Chills went up and 
>>>>>down
>>>>>my back. It scared me. I started singing hymns to make it go away, but 
>>>>>when
>>>>>it didn't work, I quoted a few sentences from psalm 91. It was like
>>>>>something just stepped into the room and grabbed me. A feeling of dread 
>>>>>came
>>>>>
>>>>>over me. It's like something terrible is about to happen. Pray please. 
>>>>>Dear
>>>>>Father in Heaven, take this feeling away from me, or help me understand 
>>>>>what
>>>>>
>>>>>it means. I haven't slept a wink all night, and I've been awake all 
>>>>>day, can
>>>>>
>>>>>you believe it? Plus, I had a bad feeling as I walked toward the den 
>>>>>that if
>>>>>
>>>>>I stepped forward, I'd step through an opening in the floor and land 
>>>>>right
>>>>>into hell. I know that sounds silly, since I'm a Christian, but you 
>>>>>know the
>>>>>
>>>>>devil will use any trick in the book to make someone afraid. He steals,
>>>>>kills, and destroys. Note, the only reason I capitalized the word he is
>>>>>because it was the first word in the sentence. To not do that would 
>>>>>violate
>>>>>grammar's rules. I wish I didn't have to capitalize it when talking 
>>>>>about
>>>>>the devil. However, when talking about Jesus, I could put it in big 
>>>>>bold,
>>>>>italicized, capitalized letters. Okay, I know, I'm being overdramatic, 
>>>>>but
>>>>>please pray for me.