You may use my name Kendall.
 
As to the don't care and stuff.... Here are a few things I think you missed 
in the tone of what I wrote.
 
I wanted my child.... I know know about the pill and was 27 years old... she 
was planed.... not the question.
The doctors NEVER mentioned that they could and would 'save' her.  I thought 
they were doing a DNC to save my life.  I told my mother we would have to try 
again next year for a baby... and told her on the phone because they had told 
my family I was being watch and the doctors would do nothing right away... but 
then 1 hours later they said off to the OR.
 
I have had disabilied friends all my life... blind, deaf, no legs and  my 
mother had a stroke 14 years before the birth of my daughter.  My mother and I 
had many talks about my mother stroke risk and quality of life issues.  My 
family beleives in no tube or machine to extend life.  Laying in a bed and looking 
at the ceiling is not life to us.... just us.  We make no choices for other.  
I am just saying that prople should be the one to make choices for thier selfs 
and families.
 
I was never ask about putting my child on a ventilator, on experimental 
equipment, on giving her blood, or doing a spinal tap.  The doctors she had when 
she was first born only wanted the money.  They said when they were done "take 
her home or give her to the state".  They did not care what kind of life she 
would have.She has CP, mental delays, and a feeding tube.  
 
I care very much for her.  When we changed hospitals and were finally told 
her mostlikely outcome... they said she would die a slow death.  She would 
suffocate over a few days and would casp for her last few breaths.  They said she 
would only know tubes and needles to keep her alive.  Hoe could ANY human with 
a soul WISH that on another human.  I as a mother could not.
BUT we have betten the odds.... we got her home...on a ventilator until she 
was 2 years old.  Now she is 12 and has CP...and is mental delayed... NO it is 
not the end of the world and yes I love her.  BUT who will take care of her 
when I am gone?  Who will change her diaper like it should be, who will give her 
a bath ever day, who will brush her hair, who will clip her nails.  Will she 
be one of those un-lucky ones in a care home that gets raped or hurt on a 
regular basis?  Remember the news coverd a story a few months back where some man 
had raped up to 40 women in homes.  I do not want this for my child.  I will 
not kill her nor let her get sick... she has done better they thought she would 
do because of us (her family) and our hard work.  But I am an only child... 
so when I am gone and my dad is gone she will have to be in a home.
 
 I know of kids that are 3 and 4 years old and have never left the hospital 
nor been off of machines... this can be the life of some premature infants.  To 
me this is just doctor greed.... not saving a life.  If you believe if 
GOD.... he deicded the life was to end but then man or the devil in man made people 
intervein and 'save' these kids.
 
If it was your older family member...they had a massive stroke and would 
never walk, talk, of leave the hospital again.... would you tell the doctors to 
put them on machines and tubes?  I have a living will not to be on machines and 
tube.. for myself but was not ask for my child.
 
I love her and take good care of her..... but I wish someone had ask before 
shoving machines in her.
Kristina



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