It will continue to bother you in those moments.  It is hard, but it is human.
I'm sorry.

-jc

Ken Follett wrote:

> Thanatos: Undercurrents of Sadness
>
> Last weekend the best friend of my son's friend (who we treat in our house as
> a second son), establishing that the subject person is somewhat removed from
> our family, a year younger than my son, a member of the youth community,
> someone I had never met, died suddenly. Story is the kid had a virus and was
> running a very high temperature so his mother put him in a tub of cold water
> and while she was on the phone to call emergency services his heart stopped,
> he went unconsious, and drowned. I've been bothered by this all week. It has
> smoldered in the background of my business conversations and adventures and
> keeps coming to consciousness during my solitary commutes.
>
> ][<en