Jason,
Thanks for your comments. I do go to a 12-step group. That's where
I developed what insight I have now. One day at a time and we may be able
to get a little better at owning our personal defects.
Bobby
>Bobby,
>It good that you are in touch with your emotions like this. If I can, please
>let me recommend one thing to you. See a counselor or social worker. We have
>no problem going to the dr for colds, illness, etc, but we deny ourselves
>the luxury of having our emotional state heeled. They will help with anger
>mangagement and a whole assortment of other problems and help you to better
>know yourself and work on better coping strategies. Dont put it off. Do
>this one good thing for you. We shouldn't have to suffer from our emotional
>injuries any longer. There are people out there that specialize in this
>area. I have wanted to do this myself for so long, I just thought my
>problems were so unique that no one would be able to understand.. As soon as
>I get off the computer Im going to do the same thing,,,call and start
>repairing my injured soul!!!
>
>
>
>Jason Kruse
>
>>First of all, I want to thank Steve Margolis for his insight. I had never
>>thought of myself as so "coldly clinical". I guess sometimes I come across
>>to others as someone who sees things from a more academic or scientific
>>perspective.
>> But I am human, also. I have had problems with anger all my life.
>>However, I keep it in most times, because I got the message early in my
>>childhood that I had to be a nice guy. I seemed to think that no one would
>>accept a CP with a nasty personality. I, therefore, stuffed a lot of anger
>>and I do not cry except in "Lassie"-type movies. I have paid dearly for
>>this. I have dranked alcoholically, I have had heart trouble and all manner
>>of other problems, all trying to be a "nice guy". Is this a part of my CP?
>>The answer for me is no! It was part of how I was taught to cope with
>>society, IMHO. I am emotional, but I try to hide it, except in sad or happy
>>movies or TV shows. My kids used to make fun of me for crying at movies and
>>such.
>> The only time I experienced out of control emotions was after heart
>>surgery when I was full of all manner of drugs and the ol' body had
>>undergone quite a trauma. I remembered crying a lot and contemplating
>>death a lot.I have never considered myself "more" emotional than anyone
>>else. Even though I love to laugh and joke, I still have a lot of anger
>>inside me and it somes out in wierd ways. IMHO, we use anger often to gain
>>some kind of control over a situation. At this late stage in life, I have
>>found anger to be very destructive and unproductive. I am attempting to be
>>less hostile and angry.
>> I don't know if I have made a bit of sense with my ramblings, but I
>>feel
>>better!! And, thanks Steve for provoking this musing.
>>
>>Bobby
>>
>>
>>>hi all.
>>>
>>>it seems like I have temper tantrums because the description has turned on
>>>a light in my head. Sometimes I hurt myself and others around me, why is it?
>>>Asdis.
>>>
>>>Asdis Jenna Astradsdottir
>>>[log in to unmask] at my home and [log in to unmask] at school.
>>>Tjarnarmyri 15
>>>170 Seltjarnarnes
>>>Iceland.
>>>phone/fax 354-5611659.
>>>cellphone 354-6981659.
>>>* NEVER GIVE UP! * :-)
>>>THE WORLD IS WONDERFUL!
>>>GOD IS WITH YOU EVERYWHERE!
>>
>>
>Kind regards,
>
>Jason Kruse
>
>
>
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