Michael,
As always the journal entries you share are moving.  You are brave and
should be proud to share these thoughts.  Men that think they have found
themselves... that can't shed tears.... that don't have deep depression,
anxiety, self doubt... are shallow men with little to give.
    You might like the 11:00 o:clock services (any of the three churches) on
the green tomorrow.  Just make sure you are on Temple street when they let
out.  The organ at the United Church is the best.
Thank you,
Happy Mother's Day,
Leland