Bobby,
It good that you are in touch with your emotions like this. If I can, please
let me recommend one thing to you. See a counselor or social worker. We have
no problem going to the dr for colds, illness, etc, but we deny ourselves
the luxury of having our emotional state heeled. They will help with anger
mangagement and a whole assortment of other problems and help you to better
know yourself and work on better coping strategies. Dont put it off. Do
this one good thing for you. We shouldn't have to suffer from our emotional
injuries any longer. There are people out there that specialize in this
area. I have wanted to do this myself for so long, I just thought my
problems were so unique that no one would be able to understand.. As soon as
I get off the computer Im going to do the same thing,,,call and start
repairing my injured soul!!!
Jason Kruse
>First of all, I want to thank Steve Margolis for his insight. I had never
>thought of myself as so "coldly clinical". I guess sometimes I come across
>to others as someone who sees things from a more academic or scientific
>perspective.
> But I am human, also. I have had problems with anger all my life.
>However, I keep it in most times, because I got the message early in my
>childhood that I had to be a nice guy. I seemed to think that no one would
>accept a CP with a nasty personality. I, therefore, stuffed a lot of anger
>and I do not cry except in "Lassie"-type movies. I have paid dearly for
>this. I have dranked alcoholically, I have had heart trouble and all manner
>of other problems, all trying to be a "nice guy". Is this a part of my CP?
>The answer for me is no! It was part of how I was taught to cope with
>society, IMHO. I am emotional, but I try to hide it, except in sad or happy
>movies or TV shows. My kids used to make fun of me for crying at movies and
>such.
> The only time I experienced out of control emotions was after heart
>surgery when I was full of all manner of drugs and the ol' body had
>undergone quite a trauma. I remembered crying a lot and contemplating
>death a lot.I have never considered myself "more" emotional than anyone
>else. Even though I love to laugh and joke, I still have a lot of anger
>inside me and it somes out in wierd ways. IMHO, we use anger often to gain
>some kind of control over a situation. At this late stage in life, I have
>found anger to be very destructive and unproductive. I am attempting to be
>less hostile and angry.
> I don't know if I have made a bit of sense with my ramblings, but I
>feel
>better!! And, thanks Steve for provoking this musing.
>
>Bobby
>
>
>>hi all.
>>
>>it seems like I have temper tantrums because the description has turned on
>>a light in my head. Sometimes I hurt myself and others around me, why is it?
>>Asdis.
>>
>>Asdis Jenna Astradsdottir
>>[log in to unmask] at my home and [log in to unmask] at school.
>>Tjarnarmyri 15
>>170 Seltjarnarnes
>>Iceland.
>>phone/fax 354-5611659.
>>cellphone 354-6981659.
>>* NEVER GIVE UP! * :-)
>>THE WORLD IS WONDERFUL!
>>GOD IS WITH YOU EVERYWHERE!
>
>
Kind regards,
Jason Kruse
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Family Practice
Kansas PA Temps
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