In a message dated 98-09-07 08:35:02 EDT, you write:

<<  I'm trying to get back into the raw thing again, but
 it's not so easy this time - there's a part of me which is almost afraid of
 giving up the junk, and of feeling energetic and clear-headed again.  Why
 is this?  >>

your life would change...

for the better...

but it still means handling fear, anxiety, stepping out of your current
comfort zone...

etc...

but do not worry...

you will only have to handle as much as you Can handle...

and as you heal...

you will gain the leverage...

needed to handle your current life...

and change it...

also...

your body will have to change...

and you will have to face the harm you've done...

and feel things you aren't currently feeling...

it's like...

the truth hurts at first...

but you always feel better afterwards...

because fighting the truth...

hurts even more...

aaron