Alex, like Sheila, I too had a food disorder. You might find help in my
article,on:

http://pages.nyu.edu/~er26

Sheila wrote:
However, bottom line, I had to STOP the behaviors including laxative
abuse.
And now I'm in group therapy for the emotional and mental underpinnings
of
the bizarre symptoms of vomiting and laxative abuse. (In others,
over-exercise and diuretics.) The behaviors are the symptoms. The source
is
in the mind and emotions.

My best,
Ellie