Chris,

I'm behind in my email, but I'm praying for you and this situation.

God Bless you.

Love,
Pat Ferguson



At 01:11 PM 12/13/03 -0500, you wrote:
>loving and most precious family:
>
>I have a very puzzling, and embarrassing yet extremely difficult situation
>that I am in now.  Not only could i use some prayer on this, but I also
>could use some help...  um, Rebertta, you especially may could help me on
>this, so I'd like all yall that feel you'd like to write on this topic,
>please do, but Reberta, especially, could you write me off list about this
>matter, at:
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>Here's the deal:
>
>
>i'd say now, probably, for about the past 4 days or so, I have been having
>major problems...  especially at nighttime where, um...  l'l'l'lets just
>keep this nongraffic...  I haven't exactly, uh... hmm...  how should I
>say...  ben'n'n'n ahm...  able too'oo'oo um...  OK, I'll just come out with
>it...  ho God Christ this is embarrassing...  I haven't been able to control
>my blatter all that well...  I've basicly been finding that at night,
>usually! I could get to the restroom in time, but a few times I only have
>made it literally and actually speaking by about a fourth of a second...
>That? isn't good...  I mean, not even a second later, let's face it:  I
>would a been soaked...
>
>Anyway, remaining as nongraffic as I can...  I called my doctor and toldem
>what was going on...  He told me to keep an extremely close eye on it over
>the corse of say the next week, and if by then it still is occuring, then
>call back and he'd set me up an appointment...  Well, i asked him in the
>ming time what to do just in case I couldn't seem to hold myself...  he then
>suggested, well, I know this is gonna sound really odd, possibly very
>stupid, Chris, but have you got means of transpertation?  I said, well yeah?
>My grandmother...  he's like, no no  Chris, I mean do you have it in such a
>way where you'd be alone...  I said, well, yeah, I could get an executive
>car, and granted it's a bit expensive, i guess I could if I had to...  He
>then said, tell ya what:  next time you get a chance, run by the store and
>pick ya up a box of disposable diapers.  just wear them at night...  You
>don't have to worry bout during the day as it seems to only really be an
>issue at night.  I then said, ok, but how can I do that, I mean, firstly,
>they won't fit!  he's like, well, I have a trick to that, and then discussed
>that with me as I won't go into it...  It's more graffical than needed...
>Anyway, here's the issue...  I followed his recommendation and have been
>doing it, but...  some of you all know about... well...  um... my... let's
>just sum it up in one word:  situation...  I'm not gonna go into details.
>We have many members on this list who are new, and I'm not sure how they'd
>react to it, and actually, even those of you who do know, there's no need to
>relive it...  Anyway, point is:  obviusly my parents know about it, well, my
>dad kind of knows...  my mom pretty well knows though, not so much the
>severity as much as just that the issue is there...  um, by situation, i'm
>not refering to this one...  OK i'll go no further than one more hint...  My
>OCD...
>
>This presents me with a major problem...  if they see what I've bought...
>then,... um...  they're gonna be mooing rather than talking if you'll let me
>put it so mildly...  I could put it much more profanely to suit what really
>would happen but then I'd probably be booted from the list, so i'll keep my
>trap shut on that regard...  Never the less, once they see these things,
>which is bound to happen, adventrually, i'm like, um...  well, let's just
>say I will see yall in heaven...
>
>I am not!  about to talk to them about this issue, neither of 'em!
>Especially after they never give me support in else places manors, or
>fassions...
>
>I've already wettened about probably 4 or 5 outta 40 of 'em, so i managed
>with my maid being here the other day to dispose of those, and she really
>didn't say anything to me, luckally, however, I'm really freeked because I
>have no mass of an idea how I'm gonna deal with this at hand when, and if,
>I'm approached, which I'm positive I will be adventurally...  i'm not so
>much asking for prayer of the situation as much as I'm asking both for
>advice as well as prayer on how in the blessid name of...  i won't complete
>that...  I'm supposed to handle this when approached...
>
>
>I must say, i'm not the type for getting really teery eyed over fear, but I
>gotta hand it to yall:  this in itself is nearly at the point of that...
>Not quite, but almost...  please, yall, help!
>
>
>Chris.
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>have a wonderful day!