Phil, great testimony.
At 01:14 PM 12/1/03 -0700, you wrote:
>The following article is now on
>www.SafePlaceFellowship.com
>under the testimonies link.
>
>Walking Free From Depression And Suicide
>
>By George R.
>
> I am a man that is 46 years old. I had accomplished many
>things in my life. Made a lot of money, had small time
>businesses, and made money as a futures and commodities trader.
>I learned all I could to gain everything I could in the world; by
>its standards.
>
> I Married at 18 years of age and am still married and
>faithful for 28 years. I have two wonderful children.
>
> I have been a sufferer of major depression to the point of
>suicide; even trying to figure out the most painless way to do it
>at great lengths. I did not realize what my problem was or why
>this could be happening to me. Albeit when I was younger I was
>the most happy productive positive person. I never dreamed or
>even knew what depression was much less it would get me. I would
>think, well if I do die somewhere in life, I will go home to be
>with Jesus because I am saved. I was very confident and then all
>of a sudden the day came the darkness of depression moved in like
>I can't even describe. I begged God to kill me; take me out of
>the world. Death would not even come to me even though I begged
>for it. Day and night I cried and literally scared to death of
>what I do not know. Scared to die and scared to live. No I was
>not on drugs nor did I have a drinking problem. I was a man who
>loved life even though most of my family members have passed away
>and my daughter has been in the hospital many many times in her
>life. I always seemed to be ok. Maybe a mid-life crisis? I
>sincerely doubt it. I had always held up under some of the most
>scary situations that life could bring. So now why was I afraid
>and scared out of my wits of death?
>
> I could not even pass by a cemetery without going to pieces.
>Death and caskets and hearses haunted me and taunted me. Did I
>read Stephen King novels? The answer is no. I would watch Psycho
>with Norman Bates and unconsciously was trying to find some of my
>answers. I could relate to him as I was treated like him as a
>child. As a matter of fact one of the actresses asked him in
>Psycho 2 when they were in Norman's mothers bedroom, she said,
>"What happened in this room that scared you so bad?" When I heard
>that, it did something to me. I remember as a 6 year old child of
>going into our bathroom at home, my Mother was in there, and I
>said, "Mom, I am afraid to die." She said son your going to live
>a long time. Why would a 6 year old child be afraid to die, you
>ask?
>
> At the point of almost killing myself I found Phil Scovell
>and Safe place fellowship. Intercessory prayer was the beginning
>of the end of my depression. I am by no means there 100 percent
>yet but have received many healings from my Lord Jesus. The Lord
>would take me back to places where the memories were hurt or
>scared me so bad. He would show me he was there with me, expose
>Satan's lies, and give me His truth and thereby setting me free.
>As I said I am not all the way there yet but have made a lot of
>progress. I did not realize it but I was carrying all the hurts
>and pains of my life. Jesus, through His great love, has shown
>and healed me in a lot of these areas. Did I ever take medicine
>for depression? Yes! Do I hear the Lord's voice clearer now?
>Yes, indeed, and it is wonderful. Do I believe he is standing
>right next to me? Most assuredly
>
> My own Pastor even made light of people that are depressed.
>Very few people in the Body of Christ know how to deal with this
>problem. I know, because I sought there help. I would read every
>spiritual book I could get my hands on. Jesus knew my problem and
>now He is getting it out of me through intercessory prayer.
>
>Sincerely,
>
>your brother in the faith,
>
>George.
>
>WWW.SafePlaceFellowship.COM
John
We give advice but we cannot give the wisdom to profit by
it. -- Francois de La Rochefoucauld<*>
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