Yep, I'm 50.  It's kind of hard to believe  this! I've been rubbing it into myself over and over, but I'm realizing more clearly that I'm still a largely under-adult girl, still liking to play around.  I hope I never grow up completely.  I'm not saying that it's okay for me to  just play around, be lazy or irresponsible  my whole life.  I know that I need to not take my free finances that makes it possible for me to live in a family-type home  for granted, and automatically expect to get free meals.  I have to remind myself that most things cost money, which, were it not for a supportive family and government funding, I'd either have to find any good job and work hard, or be homeless.  But in the middle of all the productive activity I must do, I want to become more and more child-like in faith in God, who is The faithful Creator; to be  like a child who understands more and more that there's nothing for me to worry about if I but only    communicate with Him through His written and  personal Word  and  prayer with  focus on who He is, trust Him, and obey when I'm given instructions.  This is my picture of a child, who loves and trusts her mama and daddy.  She is carefree, and playful when she's not doing her chores, and does  not worry about the bills, taxes, if, when or where the next paycheck will come.  Perhaps as a very young child, she might not even be anxious about whether or not she will get her next meal,  confident that they'll always be  faithful.  So that's how I want to become, like a trusting, teachable, responsible little  girl.


Sharon H.