Hi Sharon H.
I'm praying for you. I do not doubt your Salvation at all.
I know you are Saved, and I feel you are just going through some hard
times. I can relate to what you are feeling.
Thanks much.
Many Blessings,
Pat Ferguson
"I can Do all Things Through Christ Who Strengthens Me" Philippians 4:13.
At 06:04 PM 8/29/2014, you wrote:
>as I have mentioned recently, I'm being pulled out of the slimy
>pit. It seems that the struggle isn't quite over with yet, though.
>I know that some of you believe that once you have received Christ,
>you can never lose your salvation, or, if you turn away as far as to
>deny Him, you cannot come back because He will not die for us
>again. But I don't really agree. However, I'm learning that, just
>maybe, the Lord has kept me all the time I thought I wanted nothing
>to do with Him anymore, that there is a difference between emotional
>"Kicking God Out," telling people, to "Get off my back!" and
>agreeing to have someone put me on a prayer chain, as I have done
>with my counselor, who is a Christian and whose mother was delivered
>from a "hopeless" addiction to Valium. My counselor put her on a
>prayer chain, and maybe a few days later, not knowing what happened,
>her mother called to say, "You know, I just don't feel the need for
>it anymore." Anyway, I'm still having a hard time just simply
>leaving things in god's hands and not worrying, despite the fact He
>gave me more than one scripture about that! . If it were a
>physical thing that needed fixing, I would have walked over to Him
>and put it in His arms long ago. Now that I think of it, I might
>have worried that I would take it back under pressure, but I think a
>tangible thing would be easier to deal with. So I would still
>appreciate your prayers. Also, please pray that I will find a
>prayer partner in my area who understands how to talk with the Lord
>as The chief Counselor.
>Though the one I have now is a licensed counselor who is more open
>to this, she is paid by Medicaid. I would prefer to work with
>someone who has no restrictions of what we can or can't do. It
>would be nice to have a woman so we could become friends and goof
>around too. If I can get that, I might stop with this restrictive system.
>
>Another thing is that I haven't been going to church. For most of
>my life, I've been at least somewhat uncomfortable with it. Sure,
>sometimes I would hear an encouraging sermon, but because of what
>I've been through, I have this attitude that it reminds me that
>there is a Hell because they talk about the Lord. I would very
>often give up the fight to sleep, and would be angry when my mom
>tried to make me wake up and listen. Another attitude is, "If the
>people know what's inside of me, they might think I was in serious
>danger and might tell me that I would have to make a decision for
>Christ," as some have done." I know that I need to remember that
>they are children, brothers and sisters like myself, and not the
>Father, who is the highest authority, but right now that's not so
>easy. However, I would sort of like to find and go to a small
>informal group where the Holy spirit is allowed to move without
>being interrupted by scheduled activity. So please pray for that too.
>I see a possibility, but I've put it off. If I remember to look
>into this, I'll talk with my caregiver this evening and we might
>call the lady she talked with. You can hold me accountable to that,
>if you want. :)
>
>I hope you all don't mind this long message, but thank you for
>asking this question, Phil.
>
>Your sister in Christ,
>
>Sharon
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