Pat,

That's what crying is for; to let the emotions out that have built up. 
Those tears, of course, according to the Psalms are all bottled and kept by 
the Lord, too.  I've had 5 or 6 MRI procedures in the last few years and I 
don't like them at all.  When my back, 5 years ago, was giving me fits in 
the lower spine, it was so screwed up, I could not lay on my back without 
pain I could not endure.  They sent me to a special clinic where they 
sedated you so they could get you into the MRI machine.  They said I fell 
asleep inside during that half an hour but I didn't know it but I sure was 
thankful they were able to get me doped up enough to lay on my back for a 
half an hour in that tube.  You are trying to carry a lot of extra spiritual 
weight right now, Pat, but you need to let all of us do that heavy lifting 
for you.  That's what our prayers are for.  I prayed for you once earlier 
today because you came to mind and I knew something didn't feel right so I 
stopped and prayed right away.  Ask the Lord at these most difficult 
emotional times to bring other intercessors worldwide to pray for you at 
that moment.  I guarantee you, more folks that don't know you, but do know 
what intercessory Holy Spirit prayers are all about, will start praying for 
you.  I still do this for similar reasons myself quite frequently.  Jesus 
talks to the Father for us, too, as our Great Intercessor, so don't hesitate 
to ask God for His intercessors to pray in your behalf and don't try riding 
this experience out by yourself.  We are still all hear, and praying, even 
if you can't let us know.

Phil.
Living His Name
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