Mat,

Actually my wife and I are doing fine now, most of what I referred to was
back when. The issue now is really more of a very short cyclical time in
which emotions are a bit off whack, varying in strength, but enough to
frustrate the heck out of us when they are stirred.  As far as biblical
people getting pregnant easy, I think it looks that way because it is in
prrint. If you look at Noah building the ark, it is over a relativley short
print compared to the 120 years it actually took to build. And consider
Hannah who could not get pregnant and was tormented by  another woman as
she, the other woman,  was able to with merely a sparkle in the eye lol.
Hannah finally broke down and promised that if she would bare a child,
she'd dedicate it to God. So... boing... here comes Samuel, one of the
greatest men we read about in the Bible who she then fulfilled her promise
and left her son to be brought up by prophets of the day. And what about
Sarah and Abraham? They too did not have an easy time of it. You just go
ahead and read the entire Bible before you get the electronic one, you'll
be reading it  many times over in your life and have plenty of opportunity
to  use it I'm sure. It is as Paul said, refreshing to see the eagerness
and hunger which you have for the word. Glad to have you on the list, and
more importantly, seeking to please God in your relationships and conduct.

Brad



At 12/04/2003 on Thursday, Matt wrote:
>Hi Brad,
>I am sorry that your wife and you are having these dificulties but
>weathering it together instead of parting or turning away from each other is
>best I think.
>Terri went through a dificult period after Katherine was born and we had no
>idea what it was even though we had heard of Post pardom depression and all
>that.
>For my part, I got angrey because I couldn't understand how Terri could be
>so upset when we had just turned our whole life up-side-down to make her
>happy, by having the baby, and moving to the town she wanted to live in and
>building the new house.  I did not like having to live with her family for a
>time while we were between homes and on and on like that.
>She still has some issues from this depression but things are improving and
>she is understanding what happened more so.
>Understand, I am not saying that I did not want the baby.
>It was something we both wanted very much and we had to work at it for 3
>years before we were able to achieve it.  Then we spent the whole pregnancy
>worreying as the first pregnancy had ended in miscarage.
>I viewed us as being on top of the world once we got in the new house with
>the new baby but there were issues from our past which we had to deal with
>yet.  Terri had grudges over past wrongs in our relationship which she had
>not let go of and I had thought them settled.
>Anyway, it was a huge mess and we are better now but still not perfect.
>I have been reading all kinds of stuff in the bible these last few days on
>the bible gateway sight.
>I find it all very interesting.
>Onan, and Tamar and Ruth and nayomy and I don't know what all I have read.
>I have hopped around a lot, following my thoughts and the trails from
>different stories which link together.
>I first thought Ruth was a lesbian when I started that book, mainly because
>I saw a movie once where they used words from the book of Ruth to profess
>devotion between two lesbians.
>I looked it up because I thought Jimmy Evans was crazy for not using the
>same passages when talking about marage.
>I see now that it wasn't really about marage at all but a wittoed woman
>still wanting to be part of her husband's family?
>I am tracing through stories concerning Tamar now because Paul V, made me
>wonder about that person in the bible.
>Terri jokes that I will already have the bible all read before I receive the
>talking one.  hahah
>I just love how easy it seemed for the people of the bible to get pregnant.
>Go lay with so and so and give her a child and he did and the child's name
>was...
>Don't know how many times I have read stuff like that.
>
>Take care,
>
>Matt