Doris,

When I had surgery on my neck just 5 years ago, I came out of recovery after 
the 5 and a half hour surgery.  Recovery was about 1 hour and then they took 
me back to my room where Sandy and the rest of my family were waiting.  I 
truly wondered, before surgery, if this was not my time for going home to 
Heaven due to the neurological symptoms I was having.  In fact, I did not 
want to live if I couldn't use my hands again or walk normally.  In short, 
though I had eye surgery a couple of time that lasted over 5 hours when I 
was 11 and 12 years of age, this surgery on my neck was far more serious in 
so many ways and in so many other areas of my body.  In short, I was asleep 
from the anesthesia for probably close to 7 hours.  When I came back to my 
room and was able to talk to my family, I spent much of my time crying 
because of what the Lord revealed to me while I was under the anesthesia. 
First, he clearly revealed to me more plainly than anything I have ever 
experienced, that our relationship with Him is not a game.  My family just 
thought I was still sort of mixed up, I'm sure, because I said it out loud, 
"It's not a game; it's not a game."  Then, too, the Lord revealed to me, 
that is, He confirmed is power through waves of assurance that I was an 
intercessor and doing what He had told me to do and to prepare for it 5 
years earlier.  The feelings and spiritual depth I experienced were not drug 
induced; it was closeness to God in a way I truly cannot explain to this 
day.  The drugs break down the walls we have put up to protect ourselves and 
our feelings and that gives the Lord a perfect opportunity to minister to us 
in ways we might never experience otherwise.  The drug don't cause this to 
happen; the Lord just uses it.  In the 25 surgical procedures I've had in my 
life, they have resulted in some amazing spiritual experiences.  This is 
what the renewal of the mind prayer is like, too.  It is indisputable.  I 
don't know, you might have to look up "indisputable" in your German to 
English dictionary, haha.


Phil.
Living His Name
WWW.SafePlaceFellowship.COM




----- Original Message ----- 
From: "Doris and Chris" <[log in to unmask]>
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Sent: Saturday, March 01, 2014 10:32 PM
Subject: Re: Afraid of death


> Dear Mr. Phil,
>
> at the moment, your hunches or whatever the Lord imprints in your mind are 
> certainly touching my life and speaking to my middle. I know that as a 
> saved and committed Christian, I should not be afraid of death but 
> sometimes I am. and have not been able to shun away that fear. so praying 
> with you or one of my prayer buddies like old Brad here would be most 
> welcome.
>
> I had someof the most direct spiritual experiences during my recent 
> hospital stay. Chris thinks it is in part due to too much oxygen


 and
> if I did oxygen on the highest of 3 level, i had indeed some very vivid 
> dreams. One of those was that the lord repeated over and over in my mind 
> that service is just about that, serving gds people and not about some 
> certain ministry or church building. I felt I needed to imprint this on 
> chris;s  mind also.he has given up so much for me and has been admonished 
> for not attending church, especially by his family.
>
> there is more stuff but these are the most vivid memories, too much oxygen 
> or not. *g* looking forward to praying with you, maria, brad, papito. 
> please pray i can persuade papito to return to this list. i know he would 
> really love it.