Chris,

I'm very far behind in my email and I have been reading all the messages
related to this thread. I wasn't going to put in my two cents worth in, but
I changed my mind.

God does not want you to be offended just because you didn't get a reply
when you thought you should. Like many on this list have said, we are all
busy, and I have read your message in other's replies, and I did pray for
you even though I didn't respond. Your message below wasn't very loving. I
believe that everyone, including myself has been praying for you with all
your health problems. Please accept our love which is unconditional. God
does not put conditions on our love, except that we love others as He loves us.

I'm glad I don't get upset when people don't reply to my messages. Yes,
it's nice to know that we're loved and prayed for, but if you trust us, and
if you love God, you will know that we all love you, and that we are
praying for you and all your situations. Besides that, God knows our
hearts, and He also knows that it isn't right to say that we don't care,
when in fact, we do care for you.

Praying for you, Chris. Lord, Please give Chris peace about these feelings
towards us. I pray that you don't get mad like you have done before, and
leave this list.

God Bless you, Chris and Everyone.

Lord, forgive me if I've said the wrong thing.

God Bless you all.

Love,
Pat Ferguson

At 07:09 AM 12/14/03 -0500, you wrote:
>I really do feel very much in the background here...  i rejoin this list
>because I really felt you all were concerned and were wondering how I was
>doing...  Well, why is it that when I post something very general, like, o,
>I dunno, how yall dooen today, or maybe what's the weather like, or maybe,
>what's your dog eatin right now?  You all answer me right away, however...
>when I post something very serious that I really need prayer about such as I
>did yesterday, you all just apparently, look it over like it means
>nothing...  I will not take this out of context..  i mean, you all could!
>sit here and tell me that you all were busy, and had things like a job etc
>that you have to deal with...  OK, this may be true, but you all hold the
>phone right there for a second and listen to me...  Now, i'm gonna try not
>to make this sound rude, as that is not my motive of approach, however, I
>think it's about time that you all here the honest to God truth from me...
>So, truth you all need?  Truth you all get!  Does it really take 2 minutes
>just to simply say God, lord, Father, I dohn't know how to relate to what
>he's going through but, this is obviously putting him in mayyyyyyyyyjer
>distress...  Please, Lord, help him.  Amen.  What is my point by that?  It
>wouldn't a taken yall 10 seconds if that to pray that prayer...  i do not
>feel very confident that any one even is! praying though as I have gotten
>absolutely not even one reply on this, the fact that I haven't written the
>list any since that one post saying guess who's back...  Some of you all
>said, if you need prayer:  quote:  you know where to ask...  Well, if I knew
>where to ask, then how come there is absolutely seemingly, and I do want to
>make real sure that you all understand, I'm not wagging the finger, or
>blaming anyone specificly here...  For all i know maybe you all are!
>praying, but, the fact of the matter isn't so much are you all praying as it
>is, I feel I'm receiving absolutely no interaction from the list...  You all
>only write me when you feel it necessary, not when I find it necessary, or
>even more importantly:  when God finds it necessary.  i gotta say, i'm real
>stumped at this point, and please don't anyone write me to say I am out of
>line by writing this mail.  Maybe I am? maybe I'm not.  if i am, i'm sorry,
>but i am the type of person who very strongly believes in speaking my
>mind...  i do not like doing it, but I will when pushed over the limit...
>I'm gonna end on one last note just to say that I am extremely seriously
>thinking about unsubscribing and never rejoining again regardless what is
>said about me here..  Granted it may would be my loss, and yeah? maybe it
>would, maybe it wouldn't...  Again though, i make real clear:  I'm not here
>to play the funny bone game...  When i ask for prayer, especially on
>something this serious, I do expect if nothing else at least some, maybe not
>much, but at least some! encouragement...  i am not angry? however, i am
>extremely annoyed with you all...  There is an extremely fine line drawn
>between the two, but yes, there is a difference...  i'll leave it up to yall
>to figure that one out, and if you can't, then Phil, perhaps you can explain
>it to them as I'm cold, and freezing, I'm hungry, and I do not feel like
>sitting at this machine all mnorning typing...  You're a pastor so you
>should be able to explain it... (Well, were a pastor rather)
>
>Phil, please call me when you can...  I don't mind giving out my number on
>the list...  heck, it's in my signature so it's not like it's not well
>known...
>
>Call me:
>
>704-296-2184
>
>
>if I'm not here, just leave a msg.
>
>
>if nothing else, I do expect at least! if not more, at least! one reply to
>this mail either on or off list, and i also! expect at least one reply on
>the mail I sent yesterday about my health problem.
>
>
>Good day sunshines.
>
>
>Chris.
>
>
>msn or windows Messenger:
>
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>
>E-mail:  [log in to unmask]
>
>AOL messenger:  gilland1981
>
>phone:  704-296-2184
>
>have a wonderful day!