Chris,
I'm still praying.  I have a thought for you, however.  You had mentioned
that you are holding it together even though you want to fall apart.  One
of the fruits of the spirit is self  controll.  Perhaps God is working in
your life, helping you to grow so that you are learning to handle your
stresses in a more mature manner.  You're just not used to it yet, but,
just perhaps, this is evidence of God working in your life.  Also,  I'm
glad to hear of your buying gifts for others.  That is Christ in your
life as well.  The more that you grow in this area of giving to others,
the less your problems will seem so big because you will be focused on
those you care about.  Growing is hard, but you are truly becoming more
christ like and that is a good thing.
In His love,
Kathy

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