Folks, I really could use some prayer.  I really don't want to go into a
whole lot of detail, because this is just so painful for me to talk about,
but there are two very specific things write now on my mind;

Firstly, be praying that God would bring me peace, joy, comfort, whatever
you feel him leading you to say, over the situation with me being so
distance as far as a relationship with my friend Hope.


Secondly:  As most of you all know:  you know what happened to me Christmas
of 2001.  (about me being promised to see and meet jessica for the first
time, which ended up not working.)  Truth is:  I still to this day, almost 4
years later, have nightmares, and I don't just mean little nightmares of
waking up to find that I wouldn't see her when promised...  O? no no!  I
mean re'e'e'e'e'e'el bad nightmares.  We're talking so bad that it is
practicly traumatizing.  i can't talk to my parents nor to her parents, who
a corse are my cousin and cousin inlaw...  None of them seem to get it...
Quite frankly, I don't know either what draws me so close to her, especially
when she's only 9 and I've never yet metter...  And no...  it isn't that,
thank you very much?  And for anyone on this list who accuses me publicly of
it being my OCD, may Vickie bannem at once!  (Half serious, half joking.)
has nothing to do with that...

Anyway, your prayers on both of these issues, are greatly appreciated.  I
really dunno how much good they'll do, at this point, but I'd say it doesn't
hurt to have faith and try...


Chris.