Tied Lies

By Phil Scovell



 Recently, due to to having a cold and sore throat, my wife said something 
to me
which invoked an abrupt defensive response from me.  What she had said, out 
of
frustration and anger due to circumstances, touched something raw and deep 
within my
emotions and imprecated a harsh verbal reaction.

 Some time later that day, I was seated on the deck swing behind our house. 
I
wasn't physically feeling well due to my cold but the acute utterance I 
heard from my
wife penetrated deeply and the moment she spoke it, an older and deeper 
point of
woundedness began to emotionally throb.  In spite of how I felt physically, 
and knowing,
I wasn't wrong, after all, both verbal statements were, in fact, wrong, and, 
for that matter,
my wife had apologized in both cases, my spirit began to automatically 
search for the
source of pain which I knew shouldn't be there.  I knew it was deeper due to 
how I felt
and responded when triggered.  Unwilling to even consider praying, I found 
myself doing
exactly that and wordlessly.  When I examined my present feelings, based 
upon what my
wife had said, it immediately bumped into the previous occasion.  "Wrong 
both times," I
reasoned, "So what am I looking for that correspond with the pain I feel?" 
Instantly, my
mind flashed back to the death of my father.  I was frustrated.  How many 
times in my
life was I going to be taken back to my father's death for healing of 
emotional pain and
woundedness?  After all, he had been dead over 45 years.  How could 
something that old
continually be effecting me after 52 years of walking with the Lord as a 
born again
Christian.  I mean, wasn't all of this settled at the cross for Christians? 
I knew the answer
to these questions but being ill clouded my judgment.  So I examined my 
feelings; asking
the Lord to show me how these events all tied together so that I might be 
healed.  I
abruptly saw it, via the wisdom of the Holy Spirit, and understood what the 
Lord Jesus
was trying to show me.  One of the lies still implanted in my mind 
concerning my father's
death was related to why he died.  This was something that any little boy 
would find,
even as a Christian, with a Christian mother and family, difficult to 
understand.
Furthermore, with the Enemy taking advantage of the situation of spiritual 
confusion that
this same little boy had at the time, events were ideal for demonic 
intrusion.  When I ask,
silently in my thoughts, "What is the lie I am not seeing, Lord?" He showed 
me in a split
second of time.  I believed a lie that my father died because he truly did 
not love me.  Of
course, it sounds ridiculous even now to say it but as soon as I heard it in 
my thoughts as
I prayed, I knew it had been literally spoken, implanted, into my bewildered 
mind which
related to trying to sort out why my father had died and left me all alone. 
Yes, it was a
lie.  No, it wasn't a confused little boy that misunderstood and misread the 
circumstances
of his father's death.  No, it wasn't the result of someone misinforming the 
little boy as to
the reason for his father's unanticipated death.  No, it wasn't a 
psychological area of
perplexity that a child experience due to a lack of knowledge.  How is this 
known?
Because, as a born again Christian, even at the age of 11 years, I knew my 
father died and
went to Heaven.  The Enemy employed the opportunity to penetrate my thoughts 
and
implant a lie.  Why?  So years later, he could utilize the same lie to 
confused and
aggravate circumstances to try and make me believe my own wife didn't love 
me.  Of
course, that seems stupid, too, because for 38 years, I have known my wife 
loved me.  It
does not have to make sense, as far as the Enemy is concerned, it just has 
to cause
confusion, uncertainty, and most of all, doubt, in the minds of a Believer.

 I am sharing this experience to show how current day events and experiences 
can,
so easily, trigger memories, which contain lies, in order that the Enemy can 
destabilize,
or otherwise unbalance, God's Lordship in our lives and distort the 
relationship He, the
true Lord Jesus Christ, wants to have with us intimately.  It is commonplace 
for lies to tie
together and trigger deep rooted pain and woundedness in such a way that we 
literally
feel to be the injured one and justifiably so when nothing could be further 
from the truth.
The Enemy works diligently at making it all complex and impossible to be 
discerned.
The Holy Spirit, on the other hand, reveals the simplicity of the lies and 
heals the areas of
woundedness and pain for ever.  Thus it is, I later was able to tell my wife 
I would not be
bringing these incidences up again because the places were healed from the 
source, that
is, the origin.

 Do you hear the voice of the Holy Spirit?  Does He set you free; healing 
the pain
and curing the woundedness that may be many years old?  Do you pray from 
your spirit,
with the aid of the Holy Spirit, automatically and without human 
intervention?  Is prayer
as natural as breathing?  Isn't it about time to let Jesus share in the pain 
you fear and the
doubts you tolerate do to pride?

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