Oh, Sharon, those well meaning people haven't walked a mile in your shoes so 
how can they callously say such things? You are right, we do have to offer 
it to god and choose but it's more than that.
----- Original Message ----- 
From: "Sharon Hooley" <[log in to unmask]>
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Sent: Thursday, April 03, 2008 4:25 PM
Subject: Re: Attention Sharon


> Mari and all,
>
> You asked about my emotional struggles.  I'll try to be basic.  It has to 
> do with obsessive-compulsive thoughts/urges/yielding to many of those 
> urges, that caused emotional trauma that I've experienced that caused me 
> to feel that I want nothing to do with God, that for me to be a Christian 
> is nonexistent, somewhat like trying to wear a shoe that doesn't fit, or 
> like He's a foreign tissue to be rejected by my body, and that the only 
> way I can win this battle is to endure the pain of not yielding to certain 
> urges.  I cope with this anxiety and depression by yielding to those 
> urges, and I'm not willing to go through that, even for a moment.  I've 
> also developed a way of thinking that says, "I cannot truly enjoy the good 
> things that come my way, because I might not have it if I've done all the 
> right things."  Put these two concepts together, and add the frightening 
> experiences I've had with Christians who probably just don't understand 
> what my real problem is, and what the real solution is, saying things 
> like, "You need to hand it over to God, or you will perish.  You need to 
> decide, like a drug addict, whether you will serve The Lord, or go for the 
> quick fix that will ultimately kill you."  Of course Jesus is the 
> solution, and we must ultimately choose whether or not to serve Him, but 
> we may not always experience His Healing Touch, or approach Him in exactly 
> the same way as what others dictate.
>
> Put all these things together, and you might get the idea.  I have to go 
> to dinner now.
>
> Chat Later!
>
> Sharon
>
>
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