Whoa! That was incredible!  Thank you for sharing your heart with us.  
I know you needed to do that for yourself, cause the sharing of our 
story always allows Him to be the hero in our story as we cry, weep 
and grab a hold of the pain.  We all need to learn how not to stuff pain 
but learn to suffer well and grow from that pain (Romans 5).  Then in 
turn giving our hope that we obtained (Romans 5) to another soul who 
is in deep need for His comfort(II Corinthians 1).  He loves you so much 
and I love you too. Sweet Tee