Hey guys, well I get to go see my sister and family in Dayton for 
Thanksgiving!  I am excited.  I had a bunch of stuff rolling around in my 
brain a minute ago and well, I seemed to have lostit.  I mean the stuff 
not my brain!  I'll try to piece together some of my thoughts, as I would 
love your insights on what I am mulling around.  So here it goes.
       I was thinking about reaching, caring and connecting to others, 
you know loving your neighbor kind of stuff.  Why this is on my mind is 
that my counselor chalanged my allowing the homeless gal to stay at 
my place without knowing much about her.  She said that probably the 
bowl of chili would have done and sent her on her way...but, unrest 
entered my soul.  Now, why? Did I feel unrest was it because I am 
codependant and have the need to be needed? OR   Did I merely act 
out of obeying my Lord and his comand. to fed the poor and open your 
house to the stranger?I have been also mulling around ok so what is 
my calling and do I base my purpose in Christ on my need for family, 
needing love etc...or is it because the Lord has brought me through so 
much.  I guess what got me doing all this thinking was her challenge to 
examine my motives.  Then I was thinking, I am doing so God will love 
me anymore, (I do believe I am past that.) But, I do desire to show Him 
my love and gratitude by helping those He leads my way.  I have been 
so challenged through the years to look at the Lord's precious ones He 
sends my way as Him in desguise.  Not as bad people who need won 
over to Him, but rather hurting orphans needing His loving touch 
through me.  People are not something to conquer but someones who 
NEED relationship with the most high God.  And It is not just telling 
people about Jesus so the won't go to hell.  Its telling them about 
Jesus cause He desires and deserves relationship with them forever.  I 
think of many others who have gone before us that have had this 
passion for souls. Praying Hyde said "give me souls lest I die."  Jim 
Elliott also echoed Hyde's cry in his journals compiled by his wife 
Elisabeth Elliott.  amee Simple Mcphearson who began the Four square 
movement..she was one of the first women preachers in the 20's to 
40;'s   Billy graham  and my favorite Kieth green of the 70's who helped 
to usher in the Jesus movement  along with Larry Norman.  They were 
radical for Christ.  They did weird things and not according to the 
NORM.  Not everyone is called to radical measures in order to share the 
passionate love of Christ as these I mentioned.  But everyone is 
commanded to Love their neighbor as they would themselves and to 
Love the Lord their God with all their heart.  
   Ok I am done and I do hope it makes sense on some level.  I do love 
you all and am thankful I could just ramble as I have.  Blessed 
Thanksgiving to you all!  Love your sweet Tee