Kim,
Why won't you try to live on your own?
Kathy
At 05:29 PM 1/9/2008, you wrote:
>I'm trying to make a major decision. In a small way, I believe God's
>leading me to leave my aunt and go live with my Dad, sister, and
>nephew. I'm disenchanted with my aunt and the man who lives with us.
>Lately, I can't sleep at night, I'm so restless, I'm feeling
>emotionally dead inside. I'm saved. I know this is just a valley and
>a test of my faith, or it's some kind of spirit or an attack of the
>devil. Lately, I've gotten to where I want to be with my sister
>more, and usually, I'm making all kinds of excuses to get out of
>going home with her. I'm grateful that I'm actually wanting to be
>with them now. I seriously believe God's leading me to go and live
>with them, but I need prayer action on this. A few people have told
>me that I'd get along better if I were with them. At least the SSI
>money I get every month would be accessible to me, instead of being
>hidden away in some secret account I know nothing about. Of course,
>my aunt feels bad that Jenny, my sister didn't stay with us the
>other night because my aunt was really hateful with her the other
>day. I don't blame her, I wouldn't stay either. I strongly believe
>God's leading me to leave my aunt and go to Dad, but I need to know
>for sure, before I jump into the black water. I'm so confused,
>depressed, sleep deprived, stressed, sick and tired, frustrated,
>ashamed, panicked, scared to death, aggravated, angry, headed for a
>psychotic breakdown, not to mention a nervous breakdown, restless,
>disenchanted, discontented, dissatisfied, and emotionally turned
>inside out. It's a dark and foreboding valley for me. I'm praying,
>but I need prayer support. I've got a few friends praying, but I
>need a bigger group of prayer warriors praying for me. Please pray
>that God will reveal to me what He'd have me do.
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