Go Brad.

Phil.



----- Original Message ----- 
From: "Brad D" <[log in to unmask]>
To: <[log in to unmask]>
Sent: Sunday, July 01, 2007 6:45 PM
Subject: Re: Feeling whipped today


> I've got good news for you! The good news is you have all the help you
need
> right there. No patch, gum, tablet or capsule will get you to quit if not
> committed to it yourself and also seek God on it. I smoked for 20 years,
> quit so many times I lost count. I quit for as short a time as it took me
> to think about lighting up again to two years down the road. Man was that
> stupid or what?   It was pathetic really, I found myself sneaking smokes
in
> the garage and putting the butts in the chimney clean out   so as to not
> disappoint my family. Here I was  nearly 30 years old sneaking smokes like
> I did when I started at 13. Finally after many times of attempting to stay
> permanent, and really being as disgusted with it as you seem you are, I
> found I had run out of smokes and needed to pick some more up and it
dawned
> on me again how I really wanted to quit. I stood at our kitchen counter, I
> remember it as I was there now. I stood there and made a deal with God.
> Perhaps it isn't even  proper to do such with God, I was weeks into my
> Christian birth, and for me it was not only the bit of being sick of
waking
> up tired, clogged up nasally, headaches if I smoked too much or too
little,
> but also I felt I was not doing God justice as he gave me this body and I
> was abusing it and I also just felt it wasn't right, that was me, I'm not
> projecting any of that on to you. Anyway, I stood there and  said... "God?
> I'll make you a deal. I want to quit, I think you want me to quit. But as
> hard as I have tried in the past, the withdrawals are too much for me to
> handle. Here's the deal Lord, I will commit to the habit side, that is, I
> will refrain the physical habit side and exercise my will to just not
think
> of smoking, and for that matter not think of not smoking for that matter
> which is just as bad, if you take care of the  withdrawals." I'm happy to
> report he took me up on that offer and not only did he give me zero
> withdraws, but I believe because I was serious and gave it to him, I had
no
> need to curve the habits. You know, after you eat dinner, get busy so you
> don't think of smoking or when you feel like one to quick change your
mind,
> do something else or whatever. It was almost as literally as if I'd never
> smoked. Believe me when I say the withdrawals for me prior to that were
not
> good. I would literally plan my times of quitting around any major
> decisions due to the tiredness and I could literally sit and stare for
long
> bouts of time and not realize I was doing it. I would have been content
> watching paint dry. Of course then the irritability bit came on an all
that
> too. Anyway, you have what you need to quit, you have your will to
exercise
> over your body, and you have God to help you as well. You can do it and I
> know God will be faithful to help you. Literally. No joke.
>
> Brad
>
> At 03:51 PM 7/1/2007, you wrote:
> >Actually, I am also feeling churned, beaten,  crushed and chopped.  Don't
> >know what is wrong with me?  I feel really down and mad at myself.  I
NEED
> >to QUIT smoking But Can not or will not?  Not sure which it is.  Looking
for
> >somewhere I can stay for a few days to deal with withdrawals etc.  I hear
Sky
> >bus air is cheap so I'd be willing to fly anywhere just to get help with
this
> >stupid habit.  Love, Tee.
>