I am going to repost my testimony about the turtle experience and where it
led me following this answer to Kim's question so you can compare.
Kim asked,
Say, when you pray, like when you had your headache, how do
you hunt for demonic activity? This may be something I can use,
in addition to Christian programming.
Kim, I am using the statement, "Hunting for demonic
activity," loosely. What I really do is a form of prayer I just
called Search And Destroy missions or SAD for short. I mentally
and spiritually examine whatever emotion I am faced with at that
moment. If, for example, I feel an emotion that feels like fear
or some type of anxiety, I begin to pray and ask the Lord to show
me if this fear is associated, or connected, to any other area of
my life that hasn't been healed. The Bible calls this the
renewing of the mind. What I look for is a memory, or perhaps
only a fragment of a memory, that doesn't feel right and feels
emotionally connected to the presenting emotion such as fear,
guilt, or rejection. It could be something that happened last
week, last month or 30 years ago. It could be, since I am 55
years old, something that happened even 55 years ago.
If you recall my testimony about one of our pet turtles,
which I posted recently, and how his head was stuck inside his
shell, that is a perfect example of how I "hunt for demons," sort
of speak. What I am really doing is hunting for lies I believe
but am unaware of its presence in my life.
In the case of the turtle's head being stuck in his shell, it
rolled around in my thoughts for days. Because it kept surfacing
in my thoughts, I eventually realized the Holy Spirit must be
trying to tell me something or He had something He wished to
reveal to me. I knew this because the thought of that turtle's
head caught inside his shell and unable to get free, made me feel
a slight sense of being trapped myself. I couldn't figure out,
why something that insignificant, would make me feel that way.
Finally, I stopped what I was doing one day, sat down, and
said, "Ok, Lord. What is it? Why am I having the feeling of
being trapped, or cornered, or unable to free myself?" I simply
focused on the feeling, although, as I said, it was just a slight
emotional feeling of being trapped, or tangled, or caught. I did
not initially think this had anything to do with me personally,
that is, my feelings about the turtle getting his head caught
inside his shell. I mean, it seemed impossible to me that this
situation could have a single thing to do with me but it did. Not
in a way some might think but in an object lesson of inner healing
in a manner of speaking.
When I sat down to pray, in my thoughts I just asked the Lord
to show me the connection, if any, in my own life relating to the
current feelings I had. I was just thinking all this in my mind
and not speaking out loud. I began to search through my memories
as I felt the emotions associated with the situation with the
turtle which I was personally feeling. Every memory I went to
that seemed to have the theme of being stuck or caught or trapped
held nothing contained in the memory that fit. In other words, My
spirit did not recognize anything that was disturbing in any of
the memories that came to mind. Since I quickly ran out of
memories, I said in my thoughts, "Lord? I'm not seeing anything.
The memories I have seen feel ok and non threatening. Where is
the connection, Lord?"
Immediately, I heard the word "Womb" spoken and I instantly
saw a birthing room in a hospital. Although I don't always see
Jesus in a memory event as I pray and focus on a memory, this time
I did. It appeared as if I were standing a few feet away from the
picture I was seeing in my mind. I also immediately saw my mom
attempting to give birth on a surgical table and I could see
myself inside her womb, and upside down, and struggling to get
out. I felt, as I prayed, that is, as I viewed the memory before
me in my mind, as if I were tangled up and unable to break free.
That feeling instantly confirmed I was actually seeing a memory I
never knew I had but it had been filed away by my mind. Your
mind, by the way, never forgets anything but stores every single
event of your life in various locations of your brain which the
mind itself, by way of emotions, can tap into at any time for any
reason. Also in this memory picture, I saw two figures that I
identified as doctors and they were standing on either side of my
mom. Jesus was off to my right as I saw the memory unfold before
me, and standing a few feet further away from all that was going
on. In between where Jesus was standing, there was a dark figure
standing closer to my mother. I almost, at the second I saw this
dark shape, asked Jesus what, or who, it was but then I suddenly
knew. I knew because the Holy Spirit revealed it to me without
speaking a word. It was the Enemy, a lying spirit, speaking to my
mom generally, and to me specifically. What was the lying spirit
saying? Oh, things like, "You are trapped. You aren't going to
make it. You are going to die," and many other such lies. Make
no mistake about it. These were lies being spoken to me, and to
my mother, and to anyone else in the room that might have been
listening on a spiritual frequency, sort of speak. At this
moment, I looked toward Jesus to see what He might say. I felt
His answer and no words were spoken but His answer was, "You can
make it. I'm here. I have everything under control. Just
watch." I did.
I watched then as I slipped right through the birth canal and
the illumination of the room seemed to instantly brighten. I saw
a little baby boy being born who was so happy, he said as he came
out, "I born!" I looked over again to where Jesus was standing
and he was clapping his hands and saying, "See? I told you that
you could do it." The rush of emotional joy and happiness I felt
at that moment still gives me goose bumps just thinking about it.
This entire private prayer session I had lasted perhaps 60
seconds, if even that long, and it was over as quickly as it had
begun.
So, was I really seeing an actual memory? It is my opinion,
based upon literally thousands of hours praying with others, that
I indeed was seeing my own birth. Spiritually speaking, I was
also seeing what Jesus saw. Is it real? It is as real as any
other memory. Can babies have memories this far back? Doctors
have done studies on groups of people who do, indeed, possess such
early memory events. In fact, I can prove I had memories as early
as two or three months of age which were confirmed by my mother
many years ago. In this case, the Holy Spirit went to the filing
cabinet in my brain which holds memories of my birth, pulled out
the one Jesus wanted me to see, and displayed it in my mind.
Jesus then allowed me to see the memory as He saw it unfold.
Some people, Christian people, think this type of
intercessory prayer is self hypnosis, or new age meditation, with
a form of mind reprogression employed to create things that never
truly happened. Then you can use your powers of imagination to
manipulate a better outcome to a traumatic experience you once had
years ago. Literally, they believe you can change the memory to
feel better and to become void of all pain and trauma. This is
untrue, naturally thinking, but people are welcome to believe
whatever they wish.
So, what was the purpose of all this? I knew the situation
with the turtle triggered something inside of me but it seemed, on
the surface, ridiculous. I mean, what does a turtle have to do
with me? God used a current event to trigger something that
happened to me that occurred over 55 years ago at the moment of my
birth. Why? I asked him the same thing just last Sunday night as
I was praying with a lady on the phone about some things that
happened to her when she was 3 and 4 years old. "Jesus," I said
in my thoughts as I waited for this lady to speak, "why did you
show me my birth?" Jesus clearly spoke to me in my spirit,
through the Holy Spirit, and said, "I wanted you to see that I was
with you when you were born and that I have been with you since
the beginning. I wanted you to see the fear that the Enemy tried
to put upon you and to be accessible to him as the Deceiver
throughout the rest of your life. I wanted you to see that you
were born happy and that I want your entire life to be happy."
At this point, I could suggest much more that Jesus spoke to
me about this particular prayer session I conducted with myself,
but what I have said today is hard enough for people to believe so
I won't try and confuse the issue any further.
How is this type of prayer conducted? Stated another way;
How does one practice this form of prayer? First, although this
form of prayer can eventually become so automatic, it almost
happens without you realizing it at the time, keep in mind that
you may need help at first because there are many ways the Enemy
attempts to keep us from locating the source of the lie, that is,
the memory it is hiding in, and the level of deception the Enemy
uses to keep the lie hidden. Even after learning these basic
techniques below, you will still, from time to time, need
assistance when unable to locate the original source of pain which
has been triggered by a current experience.
Step One. Focus on the present emotion that is presenting
itself to you at the moment. It might be fear, confusion, anger,
hate, panic, guilt, anxiety, shame, condemnation, jealousy, a fear
of being trapped, suppressed, held down, or helplessness,
embarrassment, death, suicide, a sense of being powerless, or any
other emotional dynamic. Whatever emotional feeling stands out
the most at that moment is the one you start praying about.
Note. In my experience described by the turtle trapped in his
shell, my presenting emotion was the feeling of helplessness and
being trapped. That's where I focused my prayer. The turtle was
the trigger that found the emotion in my mind that needed the
healing.
Step Two. Ask the Holy Spirit to show you what Jesus wants
you to see. This will generally be memories which will come to
mind. Allow yourself to look inside each memory and search for
anything which feels wrong.
Note. In my testimony of being triggered by the situation with
the turtle, I found one or two memories that seemed likely to be
the problem but I could feel no emotions of fear or helplessness
or the feeling of being trapped in either of those memories.
Step Three. Once you have located a memory which seems to
have that same emotion, ask the Holy Spirit to show you the lie
while focusing on the pain of that memory.
Note. In my case, using my birthing memory as an example, the lie
was, "I am trapped. I'm not going to make it. I am going to
die." These have to be lies because I did make it, I am alive,
and I was not trapped. Thus, what I heard in my mind, or
thoughts, could not have been from God because God never speaks
that way.
Step Four. Once a lie, or lies, has been identified, ask the
Holy Spirit, in the name of the true Lord Jesus Christ, to show
you His truth. You will either feel it or sense it in your mind
as thoughts coming to you. You may even, as I do, describe what
you feel, or sense, as a spiritual awareness.
Note. Again, using my birthing memory as an example, the truth
was, Jesus said, "You can make it. I was right there all the
time." Then eventually, he rejoiced and said, "See? I said you
could make it."
This whole prayer process is much easier to live than it
sounds like but it only happens after a measure of experience or
repeated areas of mind renewal have been experienced. As I said,
most people need help the first few times because of all the
blockages, pit falls, chuck holes, and dead ends you will
encounter. It isn't the old axiom, practice makes perfect, but
the revelation of truth that comes from the voice of the Lord.
The automated aspect of this form of prayer is due to the fact you
have learned to hear the voice of the Lord Jesus, that is, the
Holy Spirit, Who dwells within your spirit, and a strangers voice,
that of the Enemy, you reject. Also, praying with someone else
creates the atmosphere of agreement which Jesus referred to in
Matthew 18:19 and when that is present, the power of intercessory
prayer is spiritually multiplied beyond earthly bounds. It is
easy to become frustrated when trying this at first, so having a
prayer partner who is familiar with it all is strongly
recommended.
Is there any danger in doing this type of prayer? Of course
not. There is, however, a great deal of frustration when trying
to do it by yourself until you have experienced enough healing
that you are living this form of prayer rather than practicing it.
I believe that is the true meaning of "Pray without ceasing." At
the same time, remember that the Enemy does not want you to
discover his lies or the truth because he knows Jesus said that
"You will know the truth and the truth will set you free."
Therefore, he is going to do his best to block and hide and
conceal the lie that is causing the pain.
Finally, keep in mind, the way the Enemy speaks to us is
strictly through our emotions, by placing his feelings upon our
feelings, and placing his thoughts upon our thoughts. He has no
other way of communicating with us. God speaks the exact same way
to us as His children. However, the Lord God can also speak to us
through our spirit and that is where the Holy Spirit dwells.
If you have any questions, let me know.
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