Wondered if you got   recent mail from me at your personal address?

Brad




At 06:23 PM 6/30/2007, you wrote:
>Yes, sometimes I get scared of Mr. God. this is me and not him, I know but 
>sometimes I just can't seem to help that. i get scared that Mr. God gets 
>mad at me and wants to throw me out when I fell short again. And I do so 
>often. I know that is rubbish and that Mr.God really loves me and is a big 
>hopper over anyone who he can adopt if we only let him but the "youve been 
>bad you can't be loved" echoes big time in me sometimes when I lose focus 
>from mr. God and that is when I really sstrugle.
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>On a much larger scale, i'm afraid of God in the sense that he absolutely 
>awes me because he's just beyond comprehension in his knowledge and love 
>and power and wisdom and presence and extending from the no beginning to 
>the no end that he is really beyond words and behond anything the human 
>mind or at least mine can even begin to comprehend and yet he cares enough 
>to want fellowship with each of us even though he doesn't have to because 
>he has perfect fellowship in himself with Jesus and Ruach and they have 
>perfection in themselves but they don't when they get me yet they want me 
>and everyone of us and also those who don't know them and that is just 
>incredible and awesome. maybe this is "fear of the lord" or maybe that's 
>just a churchy term. i am not scared of mr God with that but it makes me 
>just feel very little and very humble that he cares and bothers. "why 
>would the father bother?" <g>
>
>We have such a wonderful God and I want to get to know him for real and 
>sometimes I wonder what it would be like to just really be with him like 
>with a daddy but my idea of "daddies' is limited to daddy pictures largely 
>and even the best of these cannot come even close to what Mr.God promises 
>and I long so much for that!  I guess I would like to get together on 
>Mr.God's lap together right next with Jesus and cuddle with Mr. god and 
>jesus and not be scared of the thought.
>
>If that sounds weird, it probably is. I don't always think in big 
>theological terms when I think of Mr. God on a personal level.
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>So to sum things up, yes sometimes I am afraid of mr. God.One is not 
>really afraid but more reverence and that is actually pretty cool because 
>it makes me aware of God's Vastness and omnipotence and I draw comfort 
>from that. When I get scared of mr.God booting me out or not listening to 
>me, then I at least in my head know that that is not of God but of the 
>Evil One trying to get me to doubt Mr. God just as if some of myself 
>starts to secondguess stuff or people I should know better. I'm not aware 
>of Evil getting in between when I'm in the middle of such a rut sometimes 
>though.
>
>Thanks for the question, this is an intersting thread.
>
>God Bless,
>
>Doris
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>At 03:16 PM 6/30/2007 -0600, you wrote:
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>>Are you afraid of God?
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