When I was younger, Oh in my earlier twenties, my 
vocation was aiding in a workshop for the intellectual challenged (they called it 
Mental Retardation back then)  Well, anyway, I was just a mere aid who 
assisted supervisors and helped clients with their personal needs.  At the 
time, I did not have a degree.  But, I would instinctively know how to reach 
each client to help them reach their goals.  However, I could never advance in 
that place, due to the fact I did not have the degree.  In fact, the highschool 
counselor I had told me I was Not college material.  Therefore, I settled for 
less cause I never thought I could excell in college.  Time progressed and I  
went to mission school at YWAM NJ in 1989  and became a children's pastor 
from 1990-late 1993 in Miami, Fl.  Again, I had bad experiences with jobs that 
were high paying cause I did not posess a degree.  I always believed if only I 
had that degree, I could show the world just how effective I could be in an 
occupation.  Well, in 1994 I got my dream come true I attended Berea College 
in Kentucky.  I majored in Child Development.  I graduated with a high 3.98 
and was on honor society, Awarded for outstanding Christian Leader on 
Campus.  I was the chaplin for those who others would not minister too.  After 
graduation, my best friend and her daughter and I moved here to Newark, Oh.  
I had been asked to come on staff to a new church start and be the disability 
chaplin for Newark.  I was thrilled.  Well, the day we actually ended up moving 
into our Apartment that August 4th 1998, one of the pastors who interviewed 
and hired me died of a heart attack.  Eventually, I had a nervous 
breakdown.Through many circumstances, I ended up on SSDI.  
      So, I haven't worked since 1993 for real.  Although, I have attempted to try 
various jobs to no avail or the pay messed with the benefits I am have.  
So, I went to College to be on SSDI!!!??  What's up with that?  one big lie I 
keep dealing with is that I can not succeed in a career or job cause I am 
doomed for failure.  I am learning just how false this is. Sweet Tee