Phil,

I'm praying for John and for Vicki.

I'm praying for a complete healing for John.

I know what she is going through.

I hate this that everyone I know and love seems to be dying. I hate 
it, and it makes me very sad.

In fact, I'm having a really hard time dealing with loosing people, 
especially due to cancer. It sometimes puts me into depression and 
anxiety mode.

I have a friend that I love very much, and she is dying of cancer. I 
absolutely hate this.

I have another close friend and her husband is dying of cancer. It is 
horrible. God is good, though and He is in control. But, I have a 
question? Why all this cancer? What is happening?

Thanks for keeping us posted.

Love,
Pat Ferguson
At 10:47 PM 4/9/2007, you wrote:
>I did not go back up there tonight because I talked with Vicki about 4:30 PM
>and she figured in the smaller cardiac care rooms, there would likely be
>people coming and going, plus visitors, and John wouldn't be talking yet any
>way.  He is on the ventilator which is the big thing they stick down your
>throat to allow better breathing.  Vicki said her mom saw him raise his
>eyebrows as if he recognized Vicki tonight.  He is, of course, strongly
>medicated to manage the tremendous pain.  His lab work is almost in all the
>normal categories so that is wonderful news all by itself.  I have a
>diabetic class tomorrow morning in the same hospital and Sandy and my
>daughter are going and we will be able to stop in to see John and Vicki
>after this short class.  They are attempting to wean John off the ventilator
>but when they do, he begins a heart flutter but Sandy said this is common
>and with such severe heart surgery, that's how they go about getting you
>back to breathing on your own.  We are watching a miracle in progress, in my
>opinion, because every minute he lives, increases his chances of recovering.
>He is far from out of the woods, of course, but this wasn't your average
>every day root canal.  Frankly, I have found this very difficult myself and
>for a number of reasons.  Largely because, over the last 10 years of my
>life, I have lost a number of friends.  Three, in particular, I consider to
>be best friends.  John and I have gotten very close over the years and even
>more so in the last couple of three years.  I am tired of people dying that
>I know, including my own mom about four and a half years ago.  Fortunately,
>I have no doubt that every one of the people I know who have died in these
>last few years, I will get to see again and for ever and that's pretty good
>to know.  Vicki and John, I know, both appreciate your prayers for them.
>Jesus is listening.
>
>Phil.