Jeremy,
Isn't that sooo cool to have a wife as best friend? It can also be
difficult because when you have a problem with your best friend, who do you
talk to? *grin*. but the good thing is that it forces you to reconcile and
return to the smiles and etc. in stead of talking/unloading to others and
letting things brew in the background.
You two keep on to that best friend relationship, its a powerful one. You'd
be surprised how many marriages aren't that way. and each goes to their
corner of friends or a parent when advice or help is needed instead each
other.
Brad
At 05:40 PM 3/4/2008, you wrote:
>Brad,
>I tell Jen all the time how much I love her and how lucky I am to have her
>as my best friend and wife, and nothing could never change that, here in
>life or death.
>Jeremy Gilley
>If you are interested in making money while staying at home,
>then please join me and my team at:
>http://www.mypowermall.com/Biz/Home/115703
>
>----- Original Message ----- From: "Brad D" <[log in to unmask]>
>To: <[log in to unmask]>
>Sent: Tuesday, March 04, 2008 8:25 AM
>Subject: Re: my story.
>
>
>Jen,
>
>What a story of brokenness, healing and forgiveness. Thanks for sharing
>such a painful yet hopeful story. You write very well and indeed I think
>could leave this as is and yet expound on it more for others to consider,
>perhaps parents of children who they are encouraging to do the same. The
>desire to line up your life with God and live the Word, and lay it all out
>there just as you feel is both refreshing and inspiring... Jeremy sure
>was blessed when he happened along you. I pray God gives you both a
>beautiful family.
>
>Brad
>
>
>
>
>
>At 03:43 AM 3/4/2008, you wrote:
>>hi all.
>>It took me almost nine years, but i was finally able to write this down.
>>It wasn't easy and i pray that others would benifit. ***warning*** long!
>>The Truth Behind the Walls
>>
>> Most people don't know what really goes on behind the walls of
>> an abortion
>>clinic. unfortunately I do. I had an abortion on March 18, 1999. Some
>>would criticize me, and call me heartless and say I was going to hell. I
>>would call myself stupid, scared, but forgiven!
>>
>> It was a dreary kind of cold Thursday morning as I rode to the
>> clinic with
>>my parents. The father of my child didn't go with us. he chose to stay
>>behind and deny what was going on. I was about ten weeks pregnant and my
>>life was spinning out of control. I had just found out I was pregnant about
>>a month before, and during that month it seemed like my life was no longer
>>my own. I let my parents tell me that I had no other choice but to abort my
>>little girl. I figured that the father wasn't helping me with the decision
>>so what choice did I have?
>>
>> As we rode the forty-five minutes to the clinic I laid on the
>> back seat
>>with my seeing eye dog Claudia next to me on the floor. I had so many
>>thoughts going through my mind, yet I had nothing going through it at the
>>same time. I was scared and at that point I didn't care if the procedure
>>killed me. That's what they called it. the abortion was a procedure, the
>>fetus was a pregnancy, and the mother. well she wasn't considered a mother.
>>I had to sign a lot of things and listen to some stuff the day before about
>>the *risks* of the *procedure*. They included but are not limited to:
>>breast cancer, tremendous blood loss that could lead to a transfusion, liver
>>damage, and possibly death. Who wouldn't be scared?
>>
>> I knew that the tiny twitch going on inside of me was a person,
>> but I was
>>too scared to stick up for her! The crazy thing? I had written a story for
>>an assignment of my senior year of high school that included a girl not
>>going through with her abortion. Laying there I thought "could I be that
>>girl? Would I have the nerve?" My parents were talking to each other. not
>>about what was about to happen. They left me to my own thoughts thankfully.
>>
>>As we pulled up to the clinic door, my mom said to me, "You know. if I were
>>in your shoes, I would be doing the same thing." I seriously wanted to spit
>>at her.
>>
>>As I numbly got out of the car with Claudia, it was like I was a zombie. It
>>wasn't me who was doing this. It wasn't me who was about to go kill a
>>child. It couldn't be.
>>
>>The first few hours were just waiting. Then it happened all at once. The
>>doctor-if you could call it that, was late because. get this!-he was
>>delivering a baby! Crazy huh? So, they found me a new doctor. I still
>>remember her name-dr. lumly.
>>
>>First was the sonogram. I remember asking what my baby looked like, and
>>they said the fetus looked normal, my mom didn't say a word. Then was the
>>scale where they weighed me. I remember my weight.
>>
>>Then they took me to this room. Claudia stayed with my mom and dad. This
>>lady came in to get the anesthetic ready and I asked her a question. I
>>asked her first if I could ask the question to which she said it was ok.
>>Then the question: "has anyone just got up and walked out." The monster
>>didn't answer me! I swear this, if I could've seen I would've ran out of
>>there and found a way for me and my daughter to make it. But I was so
>>horrified and alone. it was horrible.
>>
>>Then the doctor. murderer. whatever you want to call her came in. she told
>>me to lie back, and they stuck the needle in my arm. From the minute the
>>needle was in I started to cry. During the whole thing, I just felt like I
>>was being held. I was not alone in that room. I hadn't came back to God at
>>that point, but I feel that He knew my heart and He was with me.
>>
>>When it was over I found myself in this room. it sounded like a big class
>>room wide open etc. I was still crying when I woke up. My parents said
>>that when they were told how I was doing, they had to physically pick
>>Claudia up so she wouldn't bolt.
>>
>>I don't remember leaving the place. I remembering making my parents pull
>>over several times because the anesthetic they gave me made me throw up
>>several times.
>>
>>When we got home, I couldn't believe where I was. Everything was normal.
>>My brothers didn't have a clue. I remember feeling so horrible because my
>>brother Eric, who didn't have a clue. a few weeks earlier we had been
>>playing around and he hit me really hard in the stomach. I thought to
>>myself, "maybe he'll kill my baby so I don't have to."
>>
>>The months after my abortion I think I was suicidal. Well not really
>>because I don't think when it came down to it I would've done anything
>>really. Then I found the Left Behind Series. I was addicted. Growing up,
>>I never knew the God that they talked about. Sure, I'd been baptized, but I
>>don't think I ever knew God.
>>
>>I was baptized and re-dedicated on 10/01/02. And for almost 3 years I was
>>in love with God. I still struggled, I was still in pain. My
>>boyfriend-Skyla's (my daughter's) father broke up with me and found someone
>>else. But God was with me through it all.
>>
>>Then, my father was killed in a motor cycle accident. I still deal with
>>issues of anger towards someone who doesn't even know I'm angry with him
>>because I didn't go see my father the weekend before he died. But I know
>>that I'll see my daddy again. I'm limping back to God because I know He is
>>the only one who cares, that you can cling to, that you can lean on! I know
>>my daddy knows I forgave him, even though I never came out and told him. I
>>know he's up there right now holding my little girl. My daddy and Skyla
>>Ilene will be the first people I will see. I know that my little girl has
>>forgiven me. I don't know if the father has ever dealt with it, and all I
>>can do is pray for him. He is not my responsibility any longer.
>>
>>I write this now because in two weeks, will be the 9th anniversary of my
>>abortion. I've never let Skyla go, and I've learned that I don't have to.
>>She'll always have a piece of my heart. But now that Jeremy and I are
>>trying to start a family, I have to acknowledge that fact that I don't have
>>to let her go. I can keep her and know she is in the best care possible.
>>She's my first-born, my little angel, and with her papa.
>>
>>Skyla Ilene barr (name given by god)
>>Due date-(confirmed by god) September 25, 1999
>>
>>Whispers From Heaven
>>Mother, dear, dear Mother,
>>could we talk, you and I?
>>When I look down from Heaven,
>>sometimes I see you cry.
>>I want so much to hug you then
>>as tight as tight can be,
>>Because I think the tears you shed
>>are sad, sad tears for me.
>>Dear Mother, I forgive you,
>>O please believe I do!
>>It must have been so difficult,
>>so very hard for you.
>>They told you things would be all right,
>>your life would just go on,
>>But never said how much you'd weep
>>and grieve when I'd be gone.
>>Yet we can still be very close
>>and love each other, too,
>>For though I'm now with God,
>>I'LL ALWAYS BE A PART OF YOU.
>>So Mother, won't you NAME me, please
>>and from my Home above
>>I'll hear you and I'll come each time
>>you call to me with Love.
>>I'd like to be the faithful friend
>>in whom you can confide;
>>Your sentinel before God's Throne,
>>the Angel at your side.
>>So TALK to me and SING to me,
>>and PRAY with me, please do!
>>And when you send a smile to me,
>>I'll send one back to you!
>>So don't be sad, Mother,
>>you'll be fine, I know,
>>For I'll be there in Spirit
>>where're you may go.
>>And when God brings you home to me,
>>my heart will know true bliss,
>>As I run up to greet you
>>with a great big hug and kiss!
>>Love,
>>Skyla Ilene Barr-was due 09/25/1999
>>
>>***author unknown***
>>
>>
>>Jenifer Gilley
>>Christ came that we may have life everlasting!
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>
>Best Regards,
>
>Brad Dunse
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