Phil,

I think I have similar feelings, that if people, especially Christians, knew 
what goes on, or what used to go on more frequently, in my mind, they would 
yell at me, and not like me.  but I've found that, After talking with others 
from whom I sought help or understanding, I was not yelled at, and some of 
them probably still at least have good will toward me.  I've also gone 
through a period when I felt evil, or that there was/were demons in me; I 
was afraid I would destroy others and myself.  I hope that these are indeed 
lies.  The Apostle James counsels us to confess our faults to one another, 
and pray for one another, that we may be healed.  Isn't it too bad that, in 
most congregations, we cannot do this without being "preached at," told 
simply to repent, or even condemned?

Sharon