Mari,

Hang on there!  I spent months after God had brought me into one single 
person absolutely doing virtually nothing.  I couldn't cook often either and 
everything looked as though I'd lost more than I gained.  That wasn't true! 
God brought good even through the periods when I felt I wasn't supported by 
other Christians and that I needed that support so badly.

I'm still working my way uphill.  God is with me though and has had to carry 
me most of the way!

I'm tired because I've had a lot on today so forgive me if this is as much 
as I can think about to write for now;  but know that this is not an 
experience that only "Mari" goes through!  Even more important, know that 
you don't go it without Him!

Love and prayers and you can write me privately if you wish.

--
Carol - Reading, UK

To you, o Lord, I lift up my soul;
In You I trust, o my God.  . . .."  PS25:1-2 NIV.
----- Original Message ----- 
From: "MariJean" <[log in to unmask]>
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Sent: Tuesday, April 24, 2007 1:29 PM
Subject: so hard, so hard!


> Hi everyone:
>
> I ended up in bed for most of Tuesday just sleeping and resting.  I did 
> not even prepare dinner, a big no no for a Diabetic.
>
> Finally, I got up at ten in the evening and took my night meds and 
> promptly crashed again for three hours.
>
> I went over to Reeves' and had dinner over there.  Now I am thinking about 
> cooking up some deer meat, having coffee, catching some more zees, or 
> whatever else.
>
> I got my ISP to cut five dollars off my bill because of all the computer 
> confusion around here.  I have been cursing like a trooper and telling 
> folks off! That's what happens when I go through something as deep as this 
> is, I guess.  I wish I could have gotten it all out in one swell foop, but 
> nothing doing.
>
> Please continue to pray for me.  I am an emotional wreck and I feel like I 
> am losing more than I gained.  I am trying to stick close to THE RADIANT 
> CHRIST, but it just seems so futile sometimes.  Just about everything 
> does.
>
> Yes, I would like cheese and crackers, please.  What a whiner I am. 
> Please forgive me if you feel like it.  O btw, I identified with the 
> little boy.  I am an ugly duckling, damaged goods, etc.
>
> LOVE IN CHRIST THE RADIANT KING,
>
> Mari