Hi,
You are welcome and it is my pleasure to do what I can to help.  Hang in 
there girl and just keep on praying.
Virgie and Hoshi
----- Original Message ----- 
From: "Reeva Parry" <[log in to unmask]>
To: <[log in to unmask]>
Sent: Wednesday, April 25, 2007 6:56 AM
Subject: Re: my prayer session


> Hi Virgie!
>
> Thank you for standing in the gap for me.
>
>
> IN GOD'S LOVING ARMS,
> Purple Mari.
>
>
> On Monday 4/23/2007 06:33 AM, VIRGIE UNDERWOOD said:
>
>>Hi,
>>While I have not had these kinds of horrible experiences I can imagine how 
>>devastating it could be to a young girl.  I will keep you in my prayers 
>>and you know the Lord loves us and forgives all our sins.  Keep the faith 
>>and know that you are loved.
>>Virgie and Hoshi
>>
>>
>>>On Saturday night, Jesus took me back to my rage, which, by the way gave 
>>>birth to one of my helpers when I was yet a child.  I carried this rage 
>>>for at least 50 years.  It was so familiar that I integrated it into 
>>>part, (the largest portion) of my personal identity.
>>>
>>>I had to go back and feel it again, the murderous, destructive, powerful 
>>>rage, mostly directed against my brother who was the 2nd of my sexual 
>>>perpetators from the time I was 12 until I was 16 years old.
>>>
>>>But, it was not just the molestations, but it was the fact that, along 
>>>with taking my body whenever he desired it, it was also the fact that he 
>>>drew it and sharred these drawnings with his school mates.  I only knew 
>>>this when I overheard a conversation between my brother and his best 
>>>friend as they talked and laughed about the drawings.
>>>
>>>My brother was a gifted young artist, and, his renderings of my nude body 
>>>and, of course, my sexual organs must have been pretty good.
>>>
>>>As I returned to the place where this rage, both against my father and my 
>>>brother, a wave of nausea swept over me and, I wasn't sure if I would 
>>>cry, or vomit.  It turned out that I was suffering from abreaction, which 
>>>Phil had seen many times before.
>>>
>>>In the long and the short of it, I ended up giving up the murderous rage 
>>>and, later only discovered that I also carried guilt because, as a 
>>>twelve-year-old girl, growing into a woman, not only did my body enjoy 
>>>the first few encounters, I had given him permission for these first 
>>>encounters.  Later, when the enjoyment wore off, he had to use threats 
>>>and intimidation to continue this sickening behavior.
>>>
>>>Now, to where I am now.  This rage formed a goodly part of my own 
>>>personal identity and, when I gave it to THE LORD, now, I feel as if I 
>>>have lost a huge chunk of myself and I feel empty and sorrowful.
>>>
>>>Jesus showed me how he viewed me, though I still believed myself to be a 
>>>twenty-cent whore.
>>>
>>>There is also the further complication of the aniversary of my parents 
>>>death which is on the twenty-fifth of this month.
>>>
>>>Please, my loving family, please pray for me.  I feel in deep grief at 
>>>present.  I know that THE LORD JESUS THE CHRIST is with me because he 
>>>promised this, but pray, pray, pray for me during this deep grief.  I 
>>>know that I will be a much happier person, free of the weight of the 
>>>guilt and the rage when all is said and done, but I need your support.
>>>
>>>I am sorry if this subject has offended some, but writing at least some 
>>>of it is very, very important.  I need to shed light on this all-too-long 
>>>darkened and self-destructive part of my life and my personage.
>>>
>>>Thank you for reading this.
>>>
>>>LOVE IN CHRIST THE RADIANT AND GLORIOUS KING,
>>>
>>>Mari