Hi,
You are welcome and it is my pleasure to do what I can to help. Hang in
there girl and just keep on praying.
Virgie and Hoshi
----- Original Message -----
From: "Reeva Parry" <[log in to unmask]>
To: <[log in to unmask]>
Sent: Wednesday, April 25, 2007 6:56 AM
Subject: Re: my prayer session
> Hi Virgie!
>
> Thank you for standing in the gap for me.
>
>
> IN GOD'S LOVING ARMS,
> Purple Mari.
>
>
> On Monday 4/23/2007 06:33 AM, VIRGIE UNDERWOOD said:
>
>>Hi,
>>While I have not had these kinds of horrible experiences I can imagine how
>>devastating it could be to a young girl. I will keep you in my prayers
>>and you know the Lord loves us and forgives all our sins. Keep the faith
>>and know that you are loved.
>>Virgie and Hoshi
>>
>>
>>>On Saturday night, Jesus took me back to my rage, which, by the way gave
>>>birth to one of my helpers when I was yet a child. I carried this rage
>>>for at least 50 years. It was so familiar that I integrated it into
>>>part, (the largest portion) of my personal identity.
>>>
>>>I had to go back and feel it again, the murderous, destructive, powerful
>>>rage, mostly directed against my brother who was the 2nd of my sexual
>>>perpetators from the time I was 12 until I was 16 years old.
>>>
>>>But, it was not just the molestations, but it was the fact that, along
>>>with taking my body whenever he desired it, it was also the fact that he
>>>drew it and sharred these drawnings with his school mates. I only knew
>>>this when I overheard a conversation between my brother and his best
>>>friend as they talked and laughed about the drawings.
>>>
>>>My brother was a gifted young artist, and, his renderings of my nude body
>>>and, of course, my sexual organs must have been pretty good.
>>>
>>>As I returned to the place where this rage, both against my father and my
>>>brother, a wave of nausea swept over me and, I wasn't sure if I would
>>>cry, or vomit. It turned out that I was suffering from abreaction, which
>>>Phil had seen many times before.
>>>
>>>In the long and the short of it, I ended up giving up the murderous rage
>>>and, later only discovered that I also carried guilt because, as a
>>>twelve-year-old girl, growing into a woman, not only did my body enjoy
>>>the first few encounters, I had given him permission for these first
>>>encounters. Later, when the enjoyment wore off, he had to use threats
>>>and intimidation to continue this sickening behavior.
>>>
>>>Now, to where I am now. This rage formed a goodly part of my own
>>>personal identity and, when I gave it to THE LORD, now, I feel as if I
>>>have lost a huge chunk of myself and I feel empty and sorrowful.
>>>
>>>Jesus showed me how he viewed me, though I still believed myself to be a
>>>twenty-cent whore.
>>>
>>>There is also the further complication of the aniversary of my parents
>>>death which is on the twenty-fifth of this month.
>>>
>>>Please, my loving family, please pray for me. I feel in deep grief at
>>>present. I know that THE LORD JESUS THE CHRIST is with me because he
>>>promised this, but pray, pray, pray for me during this deep grief. I
>>>know that I will be a much happier person, free of the weight of the
>>>guilt and the rage when all is said and done, but I need your support.
>>>
>>>I am sorry if this subject has offended some, but writing at least some
>>>of it is very, very important. I need to shed light on this all-too-long
>>>darkened and self-destructive part of my life and my personage.
>>>
>>>Thank you for reading this.
>>>
>>>LOVE IN CHRIST THE RADIANT AND GLORIOUS KING,
>>>
>>>Mari
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