Hi Carol and Family,

Yesterday, Tuesday, Phil and I had another prayer session. Lots of 
lying spirits came out. One made me shiver, and my whole body got 
cold. But here's the good news. I learned a lot about grief and how 
to give it all to Daddy Jesus.

Although I woke up extremely early, I feel refreshed and renewed. 
This day literally feels like any other. I FEEL GREAT!! Talk about 
renewing of the mind!!

Phil and I will be having another prayer session this noon, just to 
make sure that there is nothing else hiding in my mind to further 
impede my progress.

I ask for all of your prayers, both of thanksgiving for what OUR MOST 
GRACIOUS GOD has done for me, and for Reeva, who is in excruciating 
pain and has not slept for most of the night. She is really hurting, 
guys! She really, really, really needs all prayer warriors to stand 
against her pain and pray that she gets relief from it.

Thank you ever so much for being here and holding us up when we need 
support the most.


IN GOD'S LOVING ARMS,

Purple Mari, very purple this morning, and for Reeva, who will be 
receiving the Power of your prayers.

"I can do anything through Christ who strengthens me" (Phil. 4:13.)

On Monday 4/23/2007 06:26 AM, Carol Pearson said:

>Mari,
>
>You have my continued prayers.
>
>Stand on that signature line! - Jesus Himself!
>
>He will fill you again with joy and peace in believing!
>
>--
>Carol - Reading, UK
>
>To you, o Lord, I lift up my soul;
>In You I trust, o my God.  . . .."  PS25:1-2 NIV.
>----- Original Message ----- From: "MariJean" <[log in to unmask]>
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>Sent: Monday, April 23, 2007 1:46 PM
>Subject: my prayer session
>
>
>>On Saturday night, Jesus took me back to my rage, which, by the way 
>>gave birth to one of my helpers when I was yet a child.  I carried 
>>this rage for at least 50 years.  It was so familiar that I 
>>integrated it into part, (the largest portion) of my personal identity.
>>
>>I had to go back and feel it again, the murderous, destructive, 
>>powerful rage, mostly directed against my brother who was the 2nd 
>>of my sexual perpetators from the time I was 12 until I was 16 years old.
>>
>>But, it was not just the molestations, but it was the fact that, 
>>along with taking my body whenever he desired it, it was also the 
>>fact that he drew it and sharred these drawnings with his school 
>>mates.  I only knew this when I overheard a conversation between my 
>>brother and his best friend as they talked and laughed about the drawings.
>>
>>My brother was a gifted young artist, and, his renderings of my 
>>nude body and, of course, my sexual organs must have been pretty good.
>>
>>As I returned to the place where this rage, both against my father 
>>and my brother, a wave of nausea swept over me and, I wasn't sure 
>>if I would cry, or vomit.  It turned out that I was suffering from 
>>abreaction, which Phil had seen many times before.
>>
>>In the long and the short of it, I ended up giving up the murderous 
>>rage and, later only discovered that I also carried guilt because, 
>>as a twelve-year-old girl, growing into a woman, not only did my 
>>body enjoy the first few encounters, I had given him permission for 
>>these first encounters.  Later, when the enjoyment wore off, he had 
>>to use threats and intimidation to continue this sickening behavior.
>>
>>Now, to where I am now.  This rage formed a goodly part of my own 
>>personal identity and, when I gave it to THE LORD, now, I feel as 
>>if I have lost a huge chunk of myself and I feel empty and sorrowful.
>>
>>Jesus showed me how he viewed me, though I still believed myself to 
>>be a twenty-cent whore.
>>
>>There is also the further complication of the aniversary of my 
>>parents death which is on the twenty-fifth of this month.
>>
>>Please, my loving family, please pray for me.  I feel in deep grief 
>>at present.  I know that THE LORD JESUS THE CHRIST is with me 
>>because he promised this, but pray, pray, pray for me during this 
>>deep grief.  I know that I will be a much happier person, free of 
>>the weight of the guilt and the rage when all is said and done, but 
>>I need your support.
>>
>>I am sorry if this subject has offended some, but writing at least 
>>some of it is very, very important.  I need to shed light on this 
>>all-too-long darkened and self-destructive part of my life and my personage.
>>
>>Thank you for reading this.
>>
>>LOVE IN CHRIST THE RADIANT AND GLORIOUS KING,
>>
>>Mari