I was looking through files today and found this one.  It seemed as if
somebody might be encouraged by it so I'm posting it again.

Phil.

From Father To Everlasting Father


By Phil Scovell


     For several months, I felt the Holy Spirit trying to tell me
something but I could not put my spiritual finger on it.  I prayed
about it often, when it would come to mind, but I simply could not
isolate the feeling.  It seemed related to my father.  He died
when I was 11 years old.  Based upon all the healing I had
experienced concerning my fathers sudden death, I really didn't
think there were other places of healing which were important
concerning my relationship with him.  That was, however, exactly
where the Lord took me.

     The specific memory which came to mind wasn't an event but
just a memory image of my father.  At the time this memory
suddenly returned to my memory, I was praying with a lady and
couldn't focus on the impression due to the lack of time.  I tried
pushing it to the side, at least until after the prayer session,
but it kept reappearing in my thoughts and I could feel it in my
emotions.

     As the lady was in silence pondering, I quickly asked the
Lord what He was talking about.  He clearly said, "You are not
like your dad."  In two other vivid memories, the Lord had told
me, "You are not like them because you are like me now."

     As I grew, my mother said hundreds of times, "you're just
like your dad."  Her statement was always complimentary.  I, on
the other hand, had said it to myself many times but negatively
during times of stress and anxiety and not knowing why.  My
father was tormented with depression, inferiority, a lack of self
value, and the feeling he was not good enough and that he wasn't
going to make it.  I never saw any of this in action as a child
growing up but I clearly felt it at times.  Being a child, I
could not discern the meaning of the feelings I experienced so I
dismissed them.  After his death, my mother let me in on some of
this information but even then, she left out a lot of details.  It
was in prayer sessions I discovered the lies my father faced
through his 46 years of life.

     As I was waiting for the lady to respond, I finally gave in
to the spiritual impressions I was feeling about my father.  I
told the Lord that I could see nothing out of place.  So, I asked
the Holy Spirit to show me the lie that I knew had to be there.
That was the exact moment when the Lord said, "You are not like
your dad."  I personally, and automatically, finished the
sentence, "Because I am like you now."  Peace and freedom filled
my memory and something else I would describe as relief.

     What are you feeling today?  Is it something you can't put
your finger on?  Is it painful or is it just a wound that won't go
away?  Are you afraid?  Do you feel guilty?  Can you say with
confidence, "I am like Jesus now?"  Look for the presenting
negative emotion you feel at the time because that will lead you
to the lie you believe.  why do you believe the lie?  Because it
feels true.  If you need help, call me.

Safe Place Fellowship
Phil Scovell
Denver, Colorado
Mountain Time Zone
Phone:  303-507-5175
Web:  www.SafePlaceFellowship.com